MORE!!

So tonite i was at some family friends house and i got to play the electric guitar for an hour or so with them, one of drums...and i realized how much i really do love guitar. Lately i have been slacking cuz there really hasnt been that drive in my to learn anything new and it is alway so hard on the acoustic but i realized that if i can play it on mine then it is sooo easy on the electric. So I think i am going to do that this summer, go get some songs that i love, not just KISS(but oh there will be one in there) and really learn them well. So that is something to do since i cant get a job..

Midnite Rockin!

So its fun Rock n rolling all nite like KISS says to the super long solo on Free Bird!!!!

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways adknowledge him and He will make your paths straight. Thanks for coming through for me today big guy.

Im afraid that im going to be like him

When he was seeing her
You could see he had his doubts
And now he's missing her
Because he knows he's missing out
Now it's haunting him
The memories like a ghost
He's so terrified
Cause no one else even comes close

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

So then, along comes me,
This undeserving mess (undeserving mess)
Who would believe my life
Would be so blessed (life would be so blessed)
Two years ago
He left all that debris (left all that debris)
Who would of known
It would be everything I need

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

If it wasn't for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn't for him
I wouldn't know my best friend
If it wasn't for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn't for him
He would be as happy as me

She and I settled down you can bet
That he is going to have to settle for less
He's someone that I would hate to be
I got the girl and he's left with just the memory.

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

If it wasn't for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn't for him
I wouldn't know my best friend
If it wasn't for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn't for him
He would be as happy as me

God

Summer skies to separate lives
Tell me how we let this go
I hate goodbyes, God knows I've tried
I've been staring at this phone

I just thought I'd let you know
All these things I did not show you
I've just got to let you know
That I still care

Now you're gone, I'm all alone
And nothing here is right
I can't go another day
Without you in my life
God knows I'm hurting from keeping it inside
Right now I'm praying that healing comes in time

I wish that I could think of the words to say
to make this feeling go away
But you know that until then I'll be waiting here for you
I just thought I’d let you know
that I still care

I've just got to let you know

Gah i just wanna move away from everyone in my family right now. They just dont seem to get it....and its the most annoing thing ever. I really just want to move right now. So frickin annoing.

I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of is waking to You

Tell me that You will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing You

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of You

I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'less I feel You next to me
You take the pain I feel
(Waking up to You never felt so real)
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way You make me feel
(Waking up to You never felt so real)

I hate living without You
Dead wrong to ever doubt You
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore You
Oh how I thirst for You
Oh how I need You

Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of You

Manventure!

So me, jesse, seth and lindel went on a manventure to the beach, pacific city, today.

so we took off around 730. then got to this waterfall we saw on the way about 830ish so we stoped there for like 20 mins. yeah it was small tho, like maybe 10 feet high. but we stoped there and there was a trial there so we tried to climb it but it was pretty steep so me and lindel went a lil and stoped then jesse and seth went farther.then lindel shoots seth in the nose wit airsoft and he then falls all the way down and gets dirty and skins his leg. jesse goes all the way up and around to the waterfall and we get pics and stuff then starts to come back down and falls and does the same. then me and jesse peed..

then we left and drove for a while and then found this semi park thingy and went airsofting and throwing rocks in the river and had fun. but when we went back jesse and lindel drove off with out me and seth and we were still shooting at each other. went back then we drove and had to get directions at this gas station where we all were telling seth to talk to the hott gas girl but he wouldnt. so we got there finaly about noonish maybe 11. iono.

got there to pacific city and changed and went up this huge sand dune. and we had this blow up raft that we were playin wit so after going up and playing for a long time we jumped on it and went down. i did a flip going down lol. then we went into the water...for like 10 min. they picked me up and dunked me in cuz i didnt want to stay in long cuz it was really cold. salt water in my mouth., yuck so we left there dried off a lil and went to a store and got lunch. went to get gas from the hott gas girl but she was gone, poor seth.

Then we were gonna go back to our park thingy but there were alot of ppl there so we decided to find another....but we never did cuz it was crazy. jesee got a lil "happy" and was blowin bubbles too in his sleep. Got back to Jesse's house and hand some fun with fireworks and a VHS tape....they wrapped me wit the insides then i became the incredible hulk and broke out. And yeah.

So the moral of the story is when going down the highway at 70mph dont roll down your window and aim your airsoft gun at signs and shoot or other cars will get scared. And Manventures are fun and worth it.

So True

"When you pray for patiences, does God just give it to you, or does he give you an opertunity to be patient? When you pray for courage, does God just give you courage or does he gives you an opertunity to be couragous? When you pray for you family to be closer, does God just give you all warm, fuzzy feelings inside or does he give you an opertunity to work together?"

So I really felt this today, like how true it is. Its soo amazing to know that you prayed for something and now u get a chance to do it and shine! I love it!!


"Anyone can build an ark." "but I dont know where to start!" "No one ever does, just like changing the world. But all it takes in one Act of Random Kindness."

So this is awesome cuz its true too. We never know where to start and all it takes is one lil thing. Like usaly we always miss those little things that mean so much. Today I had the chance to hold a door open for someone 2 or 3 times and one time i almost didnt and she had all these things in her arms. SO it made me think and see how we really do need to do those little things and random acts, and for the past month or two i have been trying. YAY GOD!

Its All My Fault

People try to take my soul away, but I don't hear the rap that they all say.



Live to win, 'till you die, 'till the light dies in your eyes
Live to win, take it all, just keep fighting till you fall


And that is when you find out who you truely are and belong to.

Sad

Ummm...yeah this is crap.

At least I rocked out with them...I havnt for a while.

WHAT?????

"Tommy is being honored in his hometown of Beaverton, Oregon as Grand Marshal of the 50th Anniversary Beaverton Celebration Parade on September 15th 2007. Beaverton is Portland's largest suburban area and home of Nike World Headquarters. This advertisement will adorn the side Tri-Met buses in the Portland Metropolitan area from mid-August through September to promote the event."

THIS IS FRIGGEN AMAZING!!!! I am so gonna get an autograph or something!

What a Nite

Tonite was soo amazing, just everything about it. Made me smile so much. That God guy is so crazy

Im The King!

So tonite i found out that i am the king of the nite time world. I have everything i could ever want and this summer is totaly gonna get owned. Im gonna take as much advantage of this summer as i can, hang with friends day and nite, be a crazy hoodlum with jesse, anything that comes to mind. This is my opertunity to live a little. Im not saying that im gonna go out and create problems and get into trouble, but have fun and let loose a lil.

It's so sad, livin' at home
Far from the city and the midnight fun
It's so bad, goin' to school
So far from me and the dirty things that we done

I'm the king of the night time world
And you're my headlight queen
I'm the king of the night time world
Come live your secret dream

It's so fine, lovin' with ease
Far from the house and the family fights
It's so fine, bein' with you
Bein' with me makes everything alright

I'm the king of the night time world
And you're my headlight queen
I'm the king of the night time world
Come live your secret dream, alright

It's so sad, you're not content
Far from the music and the neon glow
Ain't you glad we got the time
Far from our folks, they'll never ever know

I'm the king of the night time world
And you're my headlight queen
I'm the king of the night time world
Come live your secret dream

I'm the king, I'm the king, I'm the king, I'm the king
I'm the king, I'm the king, I'm the king, I'm the king

je sus heureux

je pouvais parler aux gens en france et jouer avec euxs

SWEET

So im getting pretty excited about Creationfest. I really hope things work out and we all can go. Be awesome to see!

Hats

I miss you oh hat. Ever since u were taken off my head and thrusted on another i feel like you dont want to be worn by me again. Like right now they are wearing you, the four that were just as close as i was but you wont let me. Why? Is it because you fear once you get worn by me you wont want to leave? At time i dont even want to think about you, but then at others i want you so badly! What am i supost to even do???? I try and do like my new hat but i still want that connection with you, my old one. Maybe i will dig through my closet for you.

Yes

This is what I needed.
This is what I wanted.

Getting a Job

Risin' up, back on the street
Did my time, took my chances
Went the distance, now I'm back on my feet
Just a man and his will to survive

So many times, it happens too fast
You change your passion for glory
Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
You must fight just to keep them alive

It's the eye of the tiger, it's the cream of the fight
Risin' up to the challenge of our rival
And the last known survivor stalks his prey in the night
And he's watchin' us all in the eye of the tiger

Face to face, out in the heat
Hangin' tough, stayin' hungry
They stack the odds 'til we take to the street
For we kill with the skill to survive

Risin' up, straight to the top
Have the guts, got the glory
Went the distance, now I'm not gonna stop
Just a man and his will to survive

Halla Hallijuah

I love music, it is such a great thing. I think i would make a good worship pastor or atleast guitar player. I love it so much.

now to go running.

Holiness!!!!

Summer....What?

so its summer....im a senior.....not very epic. maybe it will hit me monday....maybe it wont. this summer better be the best yet. maybe once i get my van rollin and my license, then it will be fun.

Nothing Better Than Rockin' Out

You can hear the music on the am radio

The vcr and the dvd
There wasnt none of that crap back in 1970
We didnt know about a world wide web
It was a whole different game being played back when I was a kid

Wanna get down in a cool way
Picture yourself on a beautiful day
Big bell bottoms and groovy long hair
Just walkin in style with a portable cd player
No, you would listen to the music on the am radio
Yeah, you could hear the music on a am radio

Flashback, 72
Another summer in the neighborhood
Hangin out with nothing to do
Sometmes wed go drivin around
In my sisters pinto
Cruisin with the windows rolled down
Wed listen to the radio station
We were too damn cool to buy the eight track tapes
There wasnt any good time to want to be inside
My mama wanna watch that tv all goddamn night

Id be in bed with the radio on
I would listen to it all night long
Just to hear my favorite song
Youd have to wait but you could hear it on the am radio
Yeah, you could hear the music on a am radio
I can still hear mama say boy turn that radio down!

aw, mom. not that show again! I dont wanna watch that show! cant we watch good times or chico and the man or something cool? turn it off!

Things changed back in 75
We were all growing up on the in and the outside
We got in trouble with the police man
We got busted gettin high in the back of my friends van

I remember 1977
I started going to concerts and I saw the led zeppelin
I got a guitar on christmas day
I dreamed that jimmy page would come from santa monica and teach me to play
Teach me to play...

There isnt any place that I need to go
There isnt anything that I need to know
I did not learn from the radio

Yeah when things get stupid and I just dont know
Where to find my happy
I listen to my music on the am radio
You can hear the music on a am radio
You can hear the music on a am radio

YG

so YG was amazing last nite. Just everyones attitude and the games were pretty FUN! I think we really worked together alot last nite and i know i gained some trust. That last game was the best, falling back and then getting passed. Then just being able to be close to my friends again, that was the best part. I kept thinking how the nite woulda turned out if everything wasnt kosher and i came to the conclusion that it woulda sucked. So yay for God and working everything out!!

Oh Music, What A Joy

C     G     F
He came to live, live a perfect life,
C     G        F      G
He came to be the living word, our light.
C      G    F        G
He came to die so we'd be reconciled,
C      G    F                G
He came to rise to show His pow'r and might.

      C          G
     And that's why we praise Him,
      F       G
     That's why we sing.
      C       G       F          G
     That's why we offer Him our everything.
      C       G       F
     That's why we bow down and worship this King,
          Dm7  C/E   F  G7 Am Am/G
     'Cause He gave His everything,
          Dm7  C/E   F  G C G  F (break)
     'Cause He gave His everything.

He came to live, live again in us,
He came to be our conquering King and friend.
He came to heal and show the lost ones His love,
He came to go prepare a place for us.

      C  G   F    G    C  G    F      G
     Halle, hallelujah.  Halle, hallelujah.

Im Done

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YOU SPIN ME

You spin me right round, baby
right round like a record, baby
Right round round round
You spin me right round, baby
Right round like a record, baby
Right round round round

YAY today was the last day, what fun. hehehehewa. I cant wait for school to be over. It will be a fun summer ;)

If You Say Go

Woodburn? Like really?

Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.

If you say go, i will go. If you say wait, i will wait. If you say step out on the water and they say it cant be done, ill fix my eyes to you and i will come.

Ehhh, Whats Up Doc?

So we only have a week left, thats crazy right there eh? Ohhh what to do this summer, i dont even have a job. That is sad. Owell. So much to do; fix my van, guitar stuff, fix my bike...theres more too. Pssh i will get it done sometime. Church was boring but fun because of that, lol. Mindy you were crazy. Ohhhhhhhhh iono ahhaa.

What would you guys think if i wasnt around much? If perhaps you only saw me once a week or so? Of course this not being my choice. I know deep down that it wont come to it but you never know. I would do anything, ANYTHING to stay...

AHHHH

Mexico is threatening to invade South Africa if South Africa doesnt give up the info!! AHHH!!!

But on a lighter note its Friday!! yay. doesnt feel like it at all. and if u cant tell im being extra lazy and not caping or anything. pssh i just dont feel like doing much at all. even tho it is an amazing day andi really should get out. i will...

BUT for now, This Is Spinal Tap! hehehehe. I wanna rock and roll all night.....and party everyday

What A Week

"You have to compete with the music!"

Oh and thats what i will be doing tonite at Worship Practice!!!


So this week has been amazingly crazy. Usally i dont stress but i was really freaking out yesterday over my IB country project cuz i didnt feel like i had enough time to do it all and then i was sorta letting it get to me at YG but then i gave up my bad mood and had fun and yeah.

Its funny when you say "ok God im letting it go, i wont worry about it because i always say dont worry and i know if i give it to you everything will be good" and then when i woke up today, everything was great. i was able to finish my project, get some extra sleep AND i had plenty of time to do my french which i hadnt touched at all untill my first class today. I was pretty worried about that, but it was all GOOD!! YAY GOD!

I was also freaking out because i had broke a string last nite on my guitar and didnt know what i was going to do cuz i didnt have time to buy new ones and didnt have the money. But then during class it finaly hit me that i could ask zack if i could use his and i would also be plugged in! So that was a load off too.

I am so glad this week is almost over and that finals next week are next week. It will be so nice being done finaly.

YAY for Germany and Switzerland, even though Switzerland could get attacked at any moment. They have really been there for French Canada and will continue to, but French Canada really hopes that the other two can work out their differences without having blitzkreg everywhere. Oh and sorry for the loss of Poland.

Oh Child

I want to come closer, but you are so distant.
Lately your thoughts are so far.

This is God telling us how he so badly wants us, how he wants him in our lives, but we of course seem to have other plans

I want to show you all that you’re missing
And I’ll meet you right where you are.

God wants to show us what we are missing and he always finds a way to show us hes there, but we usaly dont realize it, realize that he is watching and caring for us.

Oh Love,(Thats us) I’ve always known you
And, Oh Love,(Thats us) you’ve always been mine
Oh Love, (Thats us) I’m only asking you for your life

God wants us to hand over our lives to him so we can do as he wishes and live a better life.

Say that you need me, I know what you’re feeling
You cannot do this alone

God really wants us to want him, and Jesus went through the same things as we are so he knows how it is. He KNOWS we do need him.

I gave you my Word, and I gave you my life
So that you’ll never be on your own

God gave us the bible, Word, and Jesus so that we can be with him and go to heaven one day, doesnt that rock?!?!

You’re waiting for this life to be what you want
(Is this what you wanted?)
You’re waiting for this life to be what you need
(Is this what you needed?)

We think our plans are sooo better but really they arnt. And he asks us if what we have now is what we wanted or needed because he knows we feel like there is something missing.

But remember
This is who we're meant to be
We are the real, the truth is unchanging
This is the call to hearts that are fadin'

Which to bury, us or the hatchet

I think you know what I’m getting at
I find it so upsetting that
The memories that you select
You keep the bad but the good you just forget

And even though I’m angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
When you peel out and drive away
I can’t believe this happened

And all this time I never thought
That all we had would be all for naught

No, I don’t hate you
Don’t want to fight you
Know I’ll always love you
But right now I just don’t like you
No, I don’t hate you
Don’t want to fight you
Know I’ll always love you
But right now I just don’t like you
Cause you took this too far (too far)

Make your decision and don’t you dare think twice
Go with your instincts along with some bad advice
This didn’t turn out the way I thought it would at all
You blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn’t budge
I tried to hold your hand but you’d rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I’m getting at
You said goodbye and I just don’t want you regretting that

No, I don’t hate you
Don’t want to fight you
Know I’ll always love you
But right now I just don’t like you
No, I don’t hate you
Don’t want to fight you
Know I’ll always love you
But right now I just don’t like you
Cause you took this too far (too far)

And wisdom always chooses
These black eyes and these bruises
Over the heartache that they say
Never completely goes away
(I just can’t believe this happened and one day we’ll see this come around)
And wisdom always chooses
These black eyes and these bruises
Over the heartache that they say
Never completely goes away
No, I don’t hate you
Don’t want to fight you
Know I’ll always love you
But right now I just don’t like you
No, I don’t hate you
Don’t want to fight you
Know I’ll always love you
But right now I just don’t like you
Cause you took this too far (too far)

What happened to us
I heard that it’s me we should blame
What happened to us
Why didn’t you stop me from turnin out this way
And know that I don’t hate you
And know that I Don’t want to fight you
And know I’ll always love you
But right now I just don’t…

Manifesto

So tonite i hung with jesse and michael. First I was just meeting jesse at firy and was planing of just having a nice time talking and catching up on things cuz i feel like im losing my best friend, hes always working now and bible school and naps....so i really just wanted a nite of him and me doing what we do. But then Jesse told me Michael was coming so i was like ok thats cool, can still do it but not to the full extent cuz me and jesse have too many inside jokes.

Then i got there and only jesse was so we were waiting for michael. Then mindy, jordan and lauren show up in her car. They were waiting for their movie to start and knew we were together so they came to see us. but to me it felt more like they came to try to get us to go to the movie. that they didnt really want me and jesse hanging without them. then after 10 mins michael showed up and it was just like a jokefeast or whatever you wanna call it. Then they start talking about stuff that just seemed like....like what i should have expected. Someone had been thinking about something for a few days now and just had to tell the other so they finaly just did. I knew all the stuff but i had worked hard not tell my best friend, because everyone said i was jesse's spy so i was fine, if you really think that i will just shut up and probly do the right thing anyway. But once they told him about the stuff i really wanted to tell him the last peice of info that they forgot....on purpose i think. I really wanted to tell him but i didnt, iono if i will. I probly will end up leting it "slip" but who knows.

Then jordan mindy and lauren started to feel unwelcomed or something iono, and left for their movie. So the three guys went to jesse's for a while and worked out and played on his comp. fun stuff.

But i feel like theres something more, that even though everyone, except one, pissed me off somehow. Yet I still call them my friend. Is it just because everyone makes mistakes and i care and like them enough to let them keep doing dumb things? Or is it that no matter what, who ever i am friends with will mess up? At times i feel so close to them, like just thursday me and her had a nice talk about everything and i loved it and felt like she was a great friend. but then there are those days where i cant stand to be around her. Then like last nite all the guys, i felt like i was connecting to them so much. I even said to myself one time last nite "this is the life" thinking about how everything in the world just seemed right with them and some of those deep stabs were finaly healing. Then tonite that person totaly disrespects my stuff and thinks its just fun and games to watch it break. I get the feeling that we are such hateful people. Like it pleases a few of us to torcher another friend, to watch him get so pissed over tiny little things. I saw that i was one of those and stoped doing it. I hated myself when i saw that i was doing it to him so i went and apoligized and tried to hang with him away from the others. At times i really see God in every single one of them. But then there are times where i dont even see how they call themselfs christians. I have been working so hard on myself and getting to the point where i think others will look at me and go "yeah, hes christian. hes so nice to everyone and always does the right thing even if he doesnt want to."

matt26: 39Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will."

42He went away a second time and prayed, "My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done."

Thats what i want, to be able to do what God wants no matter what. All the time i just give in to what i want. We all do. It IS hard to be a good christian boy/girl. What will it take for people to just want to go to YG because they want GOD, not friend or good times or fun games? Wednesday alot of people didnt go because they wanted to have fun and they figured YG wouldnt so they just wernt gonna go. WHAT?????? since when has YG ever been about US? the whole point of it is to learn about God and be around other christians and worship Him. It killed, KILLED me that when we went to have worship time no one was into it or pay attention or sang. Everyone else was more wanting to game. It just hurts. I rather any day be playing guitar for God then playing some dumb game. I just feel that everyone has their prioraties in the wrong order. Maybe thats cuz Prior isnt here to tell them how they should be. No one wants to give Nicole a chance and just wants what Prior did. Theres a reason why he left. Havnt you seen his myspace or blogs or anything??? They all are doing so much better up there, making a difference. God called him there and he listened. Nicole felt God calling her to the job and so she listened too. Now its our time to listen to God and just let us leave her alone and give her a chance. So what if she was busy getting married, you would do the same too. So what if she didnt come back after the mission trip because she meet a boy who she liked and her work picked up, you would do the same too. So what if shes not what Prior was or what you want her to be, she still sucked it up and is doing what God wants her to do, you might do the same too but i doubt it. You instead would just push God in a corner and do as you want, you think you know whats best for your live, after all it is yours. You dont go to church because you rather be sleeping in an extra hour or two and now your not coming to YG. Where else are you going to get closer to God? In your girlfriends car listening to crappy hip-hop?

Which Jesus do you follow? Which Jesus do you serve? If ephsens says to imitate Christ, why do you look so much like the world? I know what Jesus i atleast try to follow. I know i cant be perfect like he was and i know that i fail at things too but i try. I keep trying. these last few months i have felt so amazing because i have felt like i am being a better christian and person over all. I am trying so hard to follow what he wants, to not get mad right away, to love everyone, to hold the door open for someone even when i want to go shove someone into a locker. So from now on, if you call yourself a christian im going to hold you to it a bit. If i see you or hear you doing something that isnt the best thing im going to call you out. I dont ask you to change the world, but i do ask to at least try. And i ask you to do the same to me, if you hear or see me doing something i shouldnt tell me, i will be glad to hear it. I love you guys and thats why i DID stick around when all but one of you pissed me off. And i love you so much i want to help you, i want us to be a team.