MAN Enough?

I get up at seven, yeah
And I go to work at nine
I got no time for livin
Yes, Im workin all the time

It seems to me
I could live my life
A lot better than I think I am
I guess thats why they call me
They call me the workin man

They call me the workin man
I guess thats what I am

Being a man? You want to know what a real man is? A real man is a guy that had his options stripped away, and yet finds hope. Maybe this man didnt have all the choices and pleasures as you did and didn't know what else he could do and wasn't going to settle for less than he thought he was worthy of. Everyone makes bad choices but like its clique to say, you learn from them. You want to know what I've been doing with my time? Lets see...working two jobs, yes two, doing 55 hours a week just to pull in some money so that maybe one day I can have a nice life and not have to worry so much about stuff. Iono what your idea of a MAN is, but to me thats what a real man is, a workin man. And when I'm not workin, I'm playing guitar like I love and dream of and I play at church. So its not like Ive completely lost my dreams, I still get to do what I love. SO what if its not my profession yet. And while your all busy at your fancy christian college doin hw and partyin with your friends, I bet you've lost something that I havnt. Atleast I have something to believe in. And if I dont let people get close to me than maybe thats my business cuz everyone has abandoned me for some reason. You have, havnt you? So if I act like a jerk and push people away, atleast I have a good reason for it and can realy on the person that matters most.

Oh and next time you go writing about people and making assumptions, maybe you should see what its like in there shoes. Theres alot more going on than what someone who hasnt talked to them in 3 months thinks.

Just ask yourself, "Can your heart forgive even the darkest sin?" Didn't think so...

Take Me As I Am

This time I finally see the
Reason why, I can’t do this
Alone, it took some time and concentration,
to believe it, this I know

I need to build my faith sometimes,
but I am so comfortable in line,
I’m up, there’s no more time,
To try to mess with this design

Tonight’s complete,
Everyone’s asleep,
And I wanna say these words to you,
I’ll be Your hands, take me as I am,
I just wanna be with You

Take me as I am, ‘cause I’m goin’,
I was too scared to start,
and now I’m too scared to let go
Take me as I am, ‘cause I’m Growin’,
but it’s so hard to tell when I’m not used to this so

I lift my voice to sing out,
Let the sound of my heart ring out,
These hands aren’t holdin’ me down,
Never again will I be without

I need to build my faith sometimes,
but I am so comfortable in line,
I’m up, there’s no more time,
To try to mess with this design

Tonight’s complete, Everyone’s asleep,
And I wanna say these words to you,
I’ll be Your hands, take me as I am,
I just wanna be with You

Take me as I am, ‘cause I’m goin’,
I was too scared to start,
and now I’m too scared to let go
Take me as I am, ‘cause I’m growin’,
but it’s so hard to tell when I’m not used to this so

Update

WOW its been forever eh? busy i guess but not really is the sad part. Beach with the buddy was awesome! hopefully get to do one last trip with him before he ships out. Music is still amazing!!! Im slowly getting somewhere but who knows not me. Getting a good amount of work done on my car, again slowly but it will get there. Got subs to put back in, those give my car some bounce.