School?

So alot has been happening with me. For the past week it feels as if im sick, my ear has been killing me and making it hard to do my everyday tasks(work). So i went in and saw a doctor which i wasnt too thrilled about since i havnt gotten my insurance through work yet but did anyway and they cleaned my ears and told me I was fine and it was probly just from all the wax. And yet it has made no difference, I keep waking up with a stabing pain in my ear when i swallow...

Besides my illness, I've been working on getting into school, I know in the end it is a good idea as much as I dont want to go to pcc. I was surprised and found an auto body degree which for some reason popped out to me. I never really expected to be into that sort of thing but Ive been getting really excited about it. I think it would be awesome to work on cars and be able to do body work and paint. So I have been waiting to hear back from PCC if i have gotten accepted in or am registered so I can go fall term. We will see it should be pretty easy cuz all i have to do is my 16 hours of Gen. Ed and then get my assosiates in applied science and build onto that.

Beach Summer 09

I'm overdressed for success
In a world that has no shame
I've had enough of seeing love
Being played like some game

I know why the good old days are gone
Cause everyone just tolerates whats wrong
I'm not some empty space for rent

I wanna be innocent
Yours wholeheartedly
Innocent
Every part of me
Take me back so I can see
The way that love was meant to be

Boys and girls
The real world
Is one that's filled with consequence
And all the lies that glamorize
It's a life that's broken

I see why the good old days are gone
Every time I turn my tv on
What's wrong with being different

Buried underneath this avalanche
You are my hope and second chance
Don't let my heart get away

So I just got back today from the beach camping trip me and matty had planed and I gotta say it was awesome, a few times not so much, but over all it was fun. I love driving on highway 6, as much pain as those curvy roads are it is still nice just to be able to drive on a one lane road going 65 mph with some friends. Last nite I walked down to the beach alone while everyone was doing something, i dont remember what lol, and I love just being able to go there and stare into the ocean and sky and just talk with God. This song kept popping into my head yesterday and off and on the last few days but when I was on the beach I just couldnt help myself but to sing it, mainly the chorus. Just the thought of "I wanna be innocent, yours whole heartedly." And "I've had enough of seeing love being played like some game." I think these are two things that go hand-in-hand for me. Just what I want so badly. I'm gonna miss you buddy, I know you will be back in a few months but man iono what I'm gonna do without you. Iono who I'm going to look to for strength or understanding. God has blessed me with your pressence these last 6 months and I thank him for you. You were there through thick and thin, I love you and want nothing more than you to come back and to have us just pick up like nothing happened. I dont wanna say goodbye or replace you cuz nothing or no one can. I cant say it enough I love you so much, you truly have been a real best friend to me and thats something that I never have had. Thank you and I hope I did the same.

Innocent

I've had enough of seeing love
Being played like some game