Case of the Mondays

I love getting college stuff in the mail. Everytime I come home and have gotten a letter from NCC its like christmas. Today I got my papers for housing and what not which was awesome but I already had printed and filled them out cuz I just do that...but it was exciting!! I can't wait, and in a few weeks i get to send my money for everything. It is an awesome adventure and I feel really ahead of the gang because alot of people still dont know where they are going for sure, cuz they didn't do early admissions, so that makes me feel even more of a rockstar.

ARE YOU EXCITED FOR SURVIVE?!! I SURE AM!!!!!

Gone

Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash, Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred dollar bills
And oh the town fills

Today during advisory the seniors had to go listen to some guy talk about business and he said a few times that time was money, and not to waste peoples time because of that. I hate it when people say time is money. Just the fact that this thing we are all stuck in is some how equal to money. There is no point to working all the time if you are just gonna spend that money on nothing, no free TIME to use the money.

So that was just what was bugging me today....nothing big really but something about it. Owell lol. Time is money, HAhaha....who made that up....

Responsibility, Not Quite Yet

I don't want this responsibility
And don't use me because I don't agree

Why lie, do or die?
Why lie, do or?

Responsibility? What's that?
Responsibility? not quite yet
Responsibility? What's that?
I don't want to think about it; we'd be better off without it

You think I'm so simplistic
I'm onto you and your tricks

I'm still young and I'd like to stay that way
'Cause growing up won't make everything okay
I'm still young and I'd like to stay that way
I've got a voice and I've got a lot to say
I've got a lot to say. . .

So the other day I was realizing that whats been bugging me the most is the feeling of all these things I HAVE to do. You know, like school and work and homework and so on. It just gets to the point where I want to crash, that i feel so over worked from everything that I need to take a week off and just sleep. But I know I cant do that because without working means no money for college or car or anything and I obveously cant skip school or homework. I mean sure there are things I could cut out of my load but then I would feel that I'm going back on my word or something, cuz I said I would do it. I guess we'll just see right? Lol indeed, just take it one day at a time and enjoy the little mementos.

Dream On...

I keep seeing myself. In recent picutres or in refelections or what every it may be. It is so scary. What I see now doesn't seem or feel like me. What I see is this pretty tall and big guy. I guess its just that I have always compared my literal size to those around me and have always felt short or what ever. But lately when I see myself I feel like a grown up lol. That I am finaly of that level where I am a person? Its so complicated it seems, like I keep thinkin that Im just a lil boy running around playing make believe and will realize that its all just a dream and Ill wake up soon enough and realize that i'm a lil boy.

I was talking with my grandpa today and I dont remember how it came up but I got this feeling that its going by so fast. Im almost out of high school and dont really remember a whole lot of it. And then next I'll be almost out of college and what is it all for? Just to live another day to do it all again, rutine. It just scares me a little and like in the end....theres gonna be almost nothing left of me, just random things that people wont really care about.

But I like who I see in that reflection. I like how his hands look shaped and used for a talent. I like how his pouster shows that hes confident of himself. I like how he either has a smile on his face or seems to be in a fog, thinking of something. I like how his style of clothing isn't the normal holister or A&F but still looks good on him. I like how he knows that he is cocky and that it will probly hurt him in the end but still dreams, dreams on about a great life and what he can and will do that will some how last and be remembered, if its either through an amazing music career or if its just one little phase of "dont worry" in someones mind. I like him. I like that guy I see in the reflection in the window.

Pinch Me

It's the perfect time of day
To throw all your cares away
Put the sprinkler on the lawn
And run through with my gym shorts on.
Take a drink right from the hose
And change into some drier clothes
Climb the stairs up to my room
Sleep away the afternoon.

You know how nice that would be? I think i'm gonna do that this week...just not worry about anything really and just chill out. I have time before college and things are due, im still a senior and should be having fun jezz. Who cares if I have a date to prom or if I have money for stuff or anything. yea. be nice

What is love?

So today in English we were talking about Love alot, and what it is and how it acts. I saw this verse on my blog and thought it was good.

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

I think that is very true, it goes along with Corinth 13 pretty good as well. Love....love is a truth. It is cut and dry and rare.

Whats Wrong With Jeremy Camp?

He has good songs and praise God, whats wrong with that?!

Iono, people frusterate me. Its not the song that you sing but the voice you sing it with. The words dont matter, it is where your heart is. Iono, i dont wanna go into it cuz I will just get really frusterated with everything and it will only piss me off even more.

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see so clearly

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed


When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing Your praise
Than when we first begun