can’t and not get caught, but, instead, let’s turn
and run towards the light!
We’re dancing on the fence.
We’re losing innocence,
but we can’t expect to live like this forever.
We weren’t made to live like this, no never!
This is something that has been on my mind alot lately...just the fact of everyone going off to college and moving on to new and more exciting things but now they are coming home to tell all about it. Its just the fact that you always thought you knew them and who they were but now we're finding out who they really are, what they really believe. At the same time its nice to know that only a few of us really are true to our word, true to ourselves and it makes us even more sure of who we are and what we want to be. Its just interesting because with friends I meet that were already like that I just accepted it as them but when I have friends who are just turning into that I know its not really who they should be and it kills me to know. Double standard I guess but its real. Yet at the same time you wonder what they think of you now, how you've changed and what you have turned into. If its someone who you said you never thought you'd be or if its someone who just blends into the mist.
On another note, I'm starting to come back to my old self on trusting God. The last few days I've just layed myself down and said ok god, I trust you with this stuff and I know in the end it will turn out to something amazing and thats what I want. It really is worth the waiting, so dont wuss out halfway through because its starting to get hard. Just know that if it really truly is what you think it is then it cant go wrong.
Christmas is here...i think it might accualy be my first white Christmas ever..which is cool but at the same time kinda weird and I'm starting to hate the snow cuz there are days where I cant do anything or go anywhere besides work. I can drive in it just fine and its not hard or anything but its the parentals that disagree. I guess they just dont understand that with this type of weather im not going to mess around cuz I love my car too much to try to go 45 down murry while its 6 inches deep of snow. And it scares the crap outa me to do that cuz any minute I could hit ice or loss control. But my car handles great in it and I'm having fun. Yet at the same time I cant wait for it all to be gone and have alot of things just back to normal..including work. I feel like I work my butt off and then i get a check thats less than $300 which isnt something I wanna see. I'm used to $400 and than another $200 but i barley made $400 between the two. I cant live off of $400 every two weeks..I need $600 lol. Ive been getting used to the comfort of having some extra cash to throw around but I've been making do with what Ive been getting cuz I have to, so I know once it goes back to what it should be I'll be saving tons for some things I really want like my car. So much to do with the car, fix some body issues, fix some things with the steering, get new rims, get a new paint job, finish my audio system which I am sooo pumped to do cuz its already bumping pretty nicely but with 2 12" subs at 1200 watts, WOW thats going to sound amazing. ALSO I have this trust fund thing that I should be getting sooner or later which will be a good amount that I'm going to put in another account and just have it build but I'm going to use some of that for a lil surprise. So after Christmas if I get the money ask tell me to show you my surprise and I will, its going to be awesome I cant wait.
On another note, I'm starting to come back to my old self on trusting God. The last few days I've just layed myself down and said ok god, I trust you with this stuff and I know in the end it will turn out to something amazing and thats what I want. It really is worth the waiting, so dont wuss out halfway through because its starting to get hard. Just know that if it really truly is what you think it is then it cant go wrong.
Christmas is here...i think it might accualy be my first white Christmas ever..which is cool but at the same time kinda weird and I'm starting to hate the snow cuz there are days where I cant do anything or go anywhere besides work. I can drive in it just fine and its not hard or anything but its the parentals that disagree. I guess they just dont understand that with this type of weather im not going to mess around cuz I love my car too much to try to go 45 down murry while its 6 inches deep of snow. And it scares the crap outa me to do that cuz any minute I could hit ice or loss control. But my car handles great in it and I'm having fun. Yet at the same time I cant wait for it all to be gone and have alot of things just back to normal..including work. I feel like I work my butt off and then i get a check thats less than $300 which isnt something I wanna see. I'm used to $400 and than another $200 but i barley made $400 between the two. I cant live off of $400 every two weeks..I need $600 lol. Ive been getting used to the comfort of having some extra cash to throw around but I've been making do with what Ive been getting cuz I have to, so I know once it goes back to what it should be I'll be saving tons for some things I really want like my car. So much to do with the car, fix some body issues, fix some things with the steering, get new rims, get a new paint job, finish my audio system which I am sooo pumped to do cuz its already bumping pretty nicely but with 2 12" subs at 1200 watts, WOW thats going to sound amazing. ALSO I have this trust fund thing that I should be getting sooner or later which will be a good amount that I'm going to put in another account and just have it build but I'm going to use some of that for a lil surprise. So after Christmas if I get the money ask tell me to show you my surprise and I will, its going to be awesome I cant wait.
