Life

So today I kept thinking about college and fall. Jesse and his bro were talking about next year and everyone is getting ready which is weird but still it just got me thinking of how...I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying here in beaverton to work and hopefully get there next year. It really makes you think, everyone is moving on and you just wonder where you messed up...where you went wrong and what you could have done to stop it. I mean, sure I'm trying to start this whole music thing but its not like i can just do it..I guess we just have to wait and see what the plan is. I've been offered some nice things and I'm a lil surprised but I know I will have it made next year working.

So if you havnt heard yet, I am starting a job at Haggen, working in the deli part to full time. Now, this wont take up much of my days so I am trying to work it where I can also stay at Creekside and do that in the evenings. I think its going to work out real nice. Almost everyone at Creekside is leaving and as much as I would like to be one of them at times I also want to be the one that saves the few that stay. I know if so many of them leave, as to 6 are most likely going to, it will be almost impossible for the 3 that arnt to make it work. So maybe things will change around there and I can use it to my advantage and get a raise hehe. We'll see what happens, alot is going to happen in the next few weeks. One of my favorite co workers is going to be the second of the bunch to leave and I'm dreading it. He started about 2 weeks after me and I've gotten pretty close with him, he would always drive me home. We've kinda got this thing too where we just make jokes about the other for like 2 hours and get the others involved and it just kinda brings it all together. I'm pretty scared for it, with out him because its always the nights that he doesnt work that are just boring and feels like work and I dont accualy enjoy it. Iono, I know i will still have my boss who i am tight with but it will still be weird.

Trusties

when you took away the scrubs, you took away the trust, and without trust everything falls apart. We all left thinking about how important trust is. Dr Cox let Elliot have her trust in human kind for a little while longer, Carla protected the trust we have in her by coming clean. As for Dr kelso, he knew that trusting us was probly foolish. Still, it was worth it.

My Nickname

The only problem here is you, ok? we're supost to be friends, your self estem is so wraped up in what you do. Your a doctor, thats all you are, thats how you define yourself. And you think your better than me because of it. Admit it, admit it right now or else I will never be able to respect you. Ok sometimes thats true. Your a good nurse. I'm a great nurse, you patrinizing jerk.



Sometimes the only way to take a really good look at your self is through someone else's eyes. And if your lucky, you will like what you see, or you'll learn from it. If you don't like what you see, you can only hope you havn't burned too many bridges.

My New Old Friend

That place is full of liers. We're doctors, that comes with the territory. Some patients just dont like telling the whole truth. Well I dont see why they have to do that. Maybe its cuz their proud, maybe its cuz their scared. Maybe its cuz telling the truth would make them too vulnerable.

Summer

Slow Ride, take it easy


Movie of the week: Dazed and Confused

God loves you, dont forget it

TCW

Shut up shut up shut up shut up! Who are you people to give me advice about anything? All you do is complain about your relationships all day long. And you know what, glare all you want big dog, cuz I'm not afraid of you. "Ohh no, Jordans only paying attention to the baby" that must be soo hard for Dr look-at-me! Isnt it, look-at-me! And you two, your arguing since you got engaged. Wow your probly the first couple to have ever done that ever, it cant be because your scared is it? And you, lets just forget for one second that a month ago you told me you couldnt be in a relationship with anyone, because for me, its accualy fun to watch you sabatoge a relationship from the outside, it really is. Honestly, the only thing that gives me comfert you guys is while sitting at home, staring at the ceiling wishing I just had someone to talk to, is knowing that none of you idiots know how lucky you are.

I dont think people are meant to be by themselves, thats why if you accualy find someone you care about, its important to let go of the little things, even if you cant let go all the way. Cuz nothing sucks more than feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around.


You see, the truth is you guys have been complaining about work since the second I got here, just dying for an excuse to blow it off, so maybe you should quit being pissed at me when you just hate your jobs.

**** You see, the truth is you guys have been complaining about each other since the second I got here, just dying for an excuse to break it off, so maybe you should quit being pissed at me when you just hate each other.