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I Hate Feelin' Like This

So today was a good day...untill I went driving. I love to drive, like to me its alot of fun and I am usaly pretty good. well it was all good untill we were coming back from the store. I got in and did all the normal things and was backing out then was going to turn so i started to do that then my dad tells me to back up and go the other way, so i started to but since i wasnt expecting to so I wasnt straight when i backed up. So he was telling me all about that when I thought it was no big deal....well i guess it was. So that made me a lil uneasy and then everything is going fine untill we get to basken robins. He tells me to go through the drive thru. So im like ok, and start to then he tells me to stop -_- so i do. Then he tells me to instead go around it and back to the front so I start to and I hear this van next to me honk and so i slow down and look and i guess he was going.....i didnt hit him or anything but got close. I expected when my dad told me to go that it was clear. SO that was real annoing. And i just burned myself twice..

So a perfectly good day somewhat ruined. Owell morrow will be another day to get it right I guess. Pssh.

I was thinking of this song, i really like it.

I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of
Is waking to You
Tell me that You will listen
You're touch is what i'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing You
Comatose
I'll never wake up without and overdose of You
I don't wanna live, I dont wanna breathe
'Les I feel you next to me
You take the pain I feel

I want Jesus to take my pain. I dont want to live without him, he is all i have. days like this i just want to get away, go to my own lil town and be alone with my guitar and just play as loud as i can and sing for God. Worship him with all I am.

My Weekend

So playing on the worship team totaly rocked. I loved doing it. True i wasnt great, i mean the songs were new to me but i still had fun. So i am pretty pumped about being able to do that once a month then also the youth band. Its always fun. And then now i want to learn more and be better so i am pushing myself.

Then today i also had uni practice which was good, i am getting better slowly, can curb start and go for a pretty good distance but still need practice and we have a parade in 2 weeks. Im also gonna be getting my own uni, finaly, thanks chris!

This weekend has been pretty awesome, couldnt ask for a better one, but maybe next one will be ;)

PS, God rocks and Dont worry hehehehewa

Forgive me Lord, for I have sined

I’m forgiven because You were forsaken,
I’m accepted, You were condemned.
I am alive and well, Your sprit is within me,
Because You died and rose again.

"Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord"

Everytime I Look At You

Tryin' to say I'm sorry, didn't mean to break your heart
And find you waitin' up by the light of day
There's a lot I want to tell you, but I don't know where to start
And I don't know what I'd do if you walked away

Ooh, baby I tried to make it, I just got lost along the way

Im sorry babe, I knew it was wrong and yet I still did it. Im sorry. We're in this together. Someone once told me honesty is like a kiss on the lips. I now understand why.

Its funny how when your literly thinking about doing something that would change so many different things and could hurt so many people, you just pray. A simple prayer that you dont even understand what your saying and God comes through for you.

Proverbs 3:5-6

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Be In The World, Not Of It

James 4:4 You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.

So today I have really seen these people and it KILLS ME. I really dont want to be one of them, just how they are, how they look at girls because they love what they see, how they just seem so wrong in so many ways. I cant stand it anymore! I just want to yell at those people and tell them what they are doing is so wrong, they say they are christian but they still are adulterous people.

Dont be a hippie.

LETS ROCK!

Band practice rocked! Nate the worship pastor is really cool, he helped me alot just get the right rythm or riff to play. I loved being on the team too! The people are awesome and the music is good! If you cant tell right now I am so pumped!! I get to do this once a month(for now) and totaly help lead others in worship. Its awesome! and its almost friday!!! That means.....I WANNA ROCK AND ROLL ALL NITE, AND PARTY EVERYDAY!

What A Wonderful World

Today was a good day, last nite, through out YG and the rest of the nite I was freaking out cuz I had this big project due today and neither of my partners did anything and left me to make the powerpoint at the last minute....so I got it done and presented today. I think it went well, probly got a B which is fine with me. French was super fun today, I really dont know why, I think it was cuz all the good speaking kids were gone so I didnt feel threatened and me and Sam were messin around, crazy Romanians. était-le tres amusant et je m'amuserai bein la classe prochaine!!

I have worship band practice tonite which I am totaly syked about, I love playing and it will be fun to play during church! I love music. I love God. I love playing music for God. What a wonderful job that will be one day....



Ps. Live to Win

Re-Do Day.

So yesterday was a really bad day, I was in the middle of typing a blog about it when my dad got mad at me for not doing something he asked so he turned my computer off and the internet, and then it just got worse.

BUT today has been a great day. I have enjoyed finaly geting caught up in my homework, math has been crazy, we're doing calculus and it is so hard to understand at first. But mostly cause there hasnt been enough time for all the notes the last two times. Now its all good though. Math rocks once again.

And now its back to life, back to things being all groovy and good. Atleast I hope so, it would be nice.

Shhhh (Its been more then 5 mins)

How you do it all, je ne saurai plus
Dont listen to them, your no ho
They just think tu es fous
The answers only you know

High school got the best of you,
its posible.
we all change,
but yours was like going to the hospital.

Don't you remember in red-neck village?
Don't you remember laying on the floor?
Don't you remember laughing together and having the time of our life?
Don't you remember?

That was the girl that I always liked,
The girl that sang so good without being miked.
I know shes still in there,
The girl that didnt seem to give a care.

But what can we do?
Just give you time.
Let you figure it out on your own,
You can walk it, but DON'T cross the line.

The splendor of the King,
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice,
All the earth rejoice
He wraps himself in light,
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at his voice,
And trembles at his voice

How great is our God,
Sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God

Age to age he stands
And time is in His Hands
Beginning and the End,
Beginning and the End
The Godhead, Three in one
Father, Spirit, Son
The Lion and the Lamb,
The Lion and the Lamb

How great is our God,
Sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing how great
Is our God

Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and holy, tried and ture
With thanksgiving, I'll be a living
Sanctuary for You

It is you, Lord
Who came to save
The heart and soul
Of every man
It is you Lord
who knows my weakness
Who gives me strength,
With thine own hand.

Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and Holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving I'll be a living

Sanctuary for you

Lead Me on Lord
From temptation
Purify me
From within
Fill my heart with
You holy spirit
Take away all my sin

Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary
Pure and holy, tried and ture
With thanksgiving, I'll be a living

Sanctuary for You

School Shootings

So today I've been reading and watching alot of stuff about Columbine because of V. tech and all. I found out that when the shooting at Columbine was going on there were no cops going into the school, they just were outside "maintaining" the situation. It surprised me so much that they were more selfish about their own lives then the lives of students inside the school who were being shot and killed, when it's their job to pertect.
But then when someone prank calls the cops saying that there is someone with a gun at our school the SWAT is there with they're huge a** guns in minutes. Its funny how things can change. I like it though, how God will let one happen but not another, im not saying He doesnt know what hes doing, I know he does. I just like the part where he keeps ME safe, hehe.
So that was just me rambling about nothing really...just thought alot of the Columbine stuff was interesting. V. tech isnt as interesting as it...that was just a crazed guy shooting 30 people while the Columbine kids had bombs and big guns. yeah i better stop now before people start to think something.

My Day

I had a wonderful day.
I had an AMAZING day.

Happy Song!

Some may hear a voice, many with they could.
Some may see him, seeing is believing.

I hear something.....not a voice, but many.
I see something......not him, but all of them.

So do I wish I could hear his voice telling me what to do?
Do I wish I could see his face smiling over me?

nope. Because what he has given me tells me it right there. "If only I could see your face and see you smiling over us," that is more then enough for me, who needs voices and faces when u have more then that, when u have SONGS from the mouth of many praising God? I know I dont, God has defently blessed me with a way of knowing he is there and telling me thats what I need to do.

School Anyone?

Whoooooaaa
This is You, this is me
Whoooooaaa
This is who we're meant to be
We are the real, the truth is unchanging
This is the call to hearts that are fadin'
Whoooooaaa

Just felt like sayin that. So lately i have been feeling crushed by school. since i missed two days last week i feel like i have so much to do but really i dont. It's just one F.A.T. assignment, a chem one and a journalism letter. sounds pretty easy....then why is it so hard to do. Iono. I know that i will be able to do it all easily...i just wish my internet wouldnt die till 430 everyday.