Bu Bye Seniors, NOW ITS OUR TIME TO RULE!

You go, you say it all was easy
Nothing’s wrong it’s all fine
Except for that everything’s wrong
I didn’t mean to be the one
To make you think about it, no
I won’t be the one to sit and take your throws

CHORUS
Bring it on, bring it on
If you’ve got something to say, then say it loud
Bring it on, bring it on
We’re bringing it for God, so bring on the crowd

We’re here to say we’re not going away
We won’t back down
I guess we’re here to stay
I didn’t mean to be the one
To make you think about it, no
I won’t be the one to sit and take your throws, no

So having the senoirs move on and what not today is really getting me pumped and wanting summer be hear so we can get to this time next year! I wanna be a senoir and outa school and own the world. But i do have to say that next year will be amazing. Senoir year, ha i know WE DEFF WILL MAKE THE BEST OF IT! Like today it felt like me and michael owned the school while we were working on our thing. Just walking around instead of class. This year has gone so fast too, its already summer, whats with that eh? Owell, BRING IT ON!!!

yuck

im hot =<

Weekend

Guys Nite=Crazy, fun, triple kill(Yay for me) and lots more.

Now its time for the Homework and projects that we all seemed to leave till today. yay -_-

I Pledge Alegiance To The State Of Rock & Roll

Wow, i am wiped out. What a day.

Moving Night

I will stand up now, I will not step down.
I will do my best to wear this crown,
but I need You as You guide me through today.

You wake up out of bed, walk out of your castle,
and then you lift up your head.
When will you wake up
and see it takes more than just you to get through this life.

Going around the town, maybe someone had brought him down.
Different maybe, not the same, everyone thinks.

I will stand up now, I will not step down.
I will do my best to wear this crown,
but I need You as You guide me through today.

Hes going out there now, and all the things he has found,
everything around is new.
No more holding back as the crowd looks from afar
Everything he has is You

I will stand up now, I will not step down.
I will do my best to wear this crown,
but I need You as You guide me through today.

I WILL stand up now, I WILL NOT step down.
I WILL do my best to wear THIS crown
but I NEED You as You GUIDE me through today, and I THANK You for doing that Lord.

Bring It On!!!

So today rocked, school was fun(french wit michael hehe) and then after was just awesome too. Just hanging with my friends in a car outside on an amazing night just made me feel like i was living it up, like the typical high school movie ya' know? So it just made me feel free, that I'm becoming my one person more and more and I can have so much fun doing it! The part that made me think this most was when we were driving near the Beavermall in Travis's jeep and there was 5 of us in it and no top just cruisin. Made me think of some roaty teens. Iono it was just fun and I cant wait to keep it up, once i get my license(which will be soon i hope) it will just increase cuz i WILL fix my amazing van and be able to go more places.

Ps

Bible Lit was amazing today, we talked the whole time about Jesus again and we're starting John which I really Really like, so its fun. YAY for math too!

WAKE UP! WAKE UP!!

"Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves." Romans 12:10

Feels like I'm going through the motions in the dark
In a world that leaves me with an uninspired heart

All I know is I'm so tired
Living life I barely feel
Give me hope, give me fire
Give me something real

Cause I don't wanna keep sleepwalkin' through
Endless days I've had enough of
Going nowhere, God I want to
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!

It's now or never come and pull me from this dream
Where everything is colorless and nothing's what it seems

I believe only You
Can make me come alive
Help me be so consumed
Open up my eyes

Half asleep
I'm so bored
Counting sheep 

Today is just one of those days for me i guess. Its a hard day for me to love some people. Just a day where I need to look to God more and know he will pull me through. Morrow will be a better day and it will work out better. God's got it under control. I like that about him, he always knows whats going on and why and when and so I dont have to freak out about all those things like sometimes i want to.

The song up there came from Everyday Sunday's new CD Wake up! Wake up! which is totaly awesome, they are a good band that is still geting big. Worth checking out ;)

WE DID IT!

YES, WE DID IT! Its amazing, Ive been with the most amazing girl for six, yes thats SIX Months! Its been crazy, but way worth it. I Can't wait for more great memories.

NSHSS

I got my Gold chord today for National Society of High School Scholars! So if i get into NHS next year i will have two! yay. And the one im in is harder to get in so I dont get it..BUT IM HAPPY! W()()T! lol. And I have a few pics now too! yay,

Yay!

When your only friends are hotel rooms
Hands are distant lullabies
If I could turn around I would tonight

These roads never seemed so long
Since your paper heart stopped beating leaving me suddenly alone
Will daybreak ever come?

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
Over and over
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion
These thoughts run through my head
Over and over
Complaints and violins become my only friends

August evenings
Bring solemn warnings
To remember
to kiss the ones you love goodnight

You never know what temporal days may bring
So Laugh, love, live free, and sing
When life is in discord
Praise ye the Lord

So I realized today that my life is amazing. I have so much to be thankful for and it took some things for me to see that. That I have an amazing girl that loves me and will stick with my through thick and thin. That how could I want more then what I already have? That I have this growing love for God and urge to be a better christian every moment! That in my free time instead of playing games or watching tv i would rather be playing guitar for him! Life is awesome. Schools about to end, I have probly the best grades ive ever had and I have one more year!!! w00t! lol.

He's the guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

So then along comes me- this undeserving mess
Who would believe my life would be so blessed
Two years ago when you left all that debris
Who would have known it would leave everything I need

He's the guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world, but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

If it wasn't for him I would still be searching
If it wasn't for him I wouldn't know my best friend
If it wasn't for him you would be able to see
That if it wasn't for him, he'd be as happy as me

When she and I settled down you can bet
That he is gonna have to settle for less
He's someone I would hate to be,
I got the girl and he's left with just the memory

Dumb Monopolies.

So I feel horrible to say this but....I had starbucks this morning for the first time really. I hate the idea of them and how hooked everyone is to it. Coffee isnt that amazing people. I hate to say this too but I liked what I had, and Orange Mocha. Its not like I would spend 100s of dollars on it like half the world but I would get it once in a while(once a month...) But i much rather buy a sobe which is cheap and bigger, tastier too.

Birthdays golore

So today was angela(and mindy)'s birthday and we partied it up. After school i ran up to my mom's work and safeway to get Angela's flowers cuz my mom said it would be best to get them today and not before. Then I got home and put it all together with her gift and pretty much left then. It was amazing to hang with her family so much, we went to dinner and it was like 3 hours together which was cool. They are rad people.

And now Im going to bed

Losing Innocence

I think its about time for me to suck it up and accualy try instead of just B**ch about it. I think if i really want it i have to try and not be all weird. Im sorry, please forgive me. From now on i will be as strong as I can, cuz I DO love you and ONLY you.

I’m done. I’m done with this!
Oh Son, expose my weakness with the
daylight you bring that’s bright enough to kill this grey.

We’re dancing on the fence.
We’re losing innocence
but we can’t expect to live like this forever.

What do I say? How do I explain this grey
that weighs heavy on the brains of those who
I love and those who keep the faith?
When I know there’s just one way.

We’re dancing on the fence.
We’re losing innocence,
but we can’t expect to live like this forever!
We weren’t made to live like this, no never!

We try to come as close as we can to what we
can’t and not get caught, but, instead, let’s turn
and run towards the light!

We’re dancing on the fence.
We’re losing innocence,
but we can’t expect to live like this forever.
We weren’t made to live like this, no never! 

God's Circus is pretty psycho

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
Hello
Here I am!
Here we are,we are one
I've been waiting for this night to come
Get up!
Now it's time for me to take my place
The make-up runnin' down my face
We're exiled from the human race.

You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
I say welcome to the show.

I've been waiting here to be your guide
So come
Reveal the secrets that you keep inside
Step up!
No one leaves 'til the night is done
The amplifier starts to hum
The carnival has just begun.

You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
Yeah I say welcome to the show
welcome to the show
welcome to the show
welcome to the show
welcome to the show

I, I've been waiting here to be your guide
So come
Reveal the secrets that you keep inside
Step up!
No one leaves 'til the night is done
The amplifier starts to hum
The carnival has just begun.

You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
You're in the psy
You're in the psycho circus
And I say welcome to the show
Welcome to the show
Welcome to the show
And I say welcome to the show

Hehe, I love songs

Stuck in my head

I want to come closer
But you are so distant
Lately your thoughts are so far
And I want to show you all that you're missing
I'll meet you right where you are

Oh love, I've always known you
Oh love, you've always been mine
Oh love, I'm only asking you for your life

Say that you need me
I know what you're feeling
You cannot do this alone
I gave my word and I gave you my life
So you'll never be on your own

Oh love, I've always known you
Oh love, you've always been mine
Oh love, I'm only asking you for your life

Is this what you wanted?
Is this what you needed?
(You're waiting for this life to be what you've been waiting for...)

Oh love, I've always known you
Oh love, you've always been mine
Oh love, I'm only asking you for your life
Oh love, I've always known you
Oh love, you've always been mine
Oh child, I'm only asking you for your life

Take it all please....

Hurts, really hurts.

So today for the first time I realized that I am no longer one of those cool kids, the ones that have alot of fun just being dorks. There are new ones now and it hurts, hurts so much to see. But i should have expected sometime that i would find out. Ive known for 4 months now that I wasnt going to be. I now have a deep wish inside to just kill off total knowledge of the cool kids. I dont want to hurt anymore, I just want to move on since i know i cant be one again. I just want to be normal again.

Re: The best feeling in the world

when you drink like 2 liters of water then go pee 3 times within 20 mins and its like totaly clear like the water u drank and you go "well thats weird."

The best feeling in the world

The best thing is when ur walking from chem to the portables for FAT and your about to step outside and you start to flinch for the coldness like it usaly is but then you find out its the same temp. Or when your going and inside is colder so it feels so nice to be out in the warm!!

Why am I the way I am?

So today a good friend from way back surprised me and stoped by and we hung most of the day. I havnt seen her in like a year so it was nice. shes the same as always. We went and bugged travis at work then went to DQ for some food.

Then i got to go on a run with mindy and michael which was nice. We talked some, not too much really, it was more just them having inside jokes but I didnt care that i was left out really, it was nice to just get out and run.

God is being crazy, but i think hes also being the God that I love

GOSH

So i played today for church, that was alot of fun. Have had a song stuck in my head ever since...

So i had to get my hair cut and its real real real short...i dont like it much..i cant do anything wit it. And then we blonded it again..but it turned out pretty blonde. so it doesnt look great yet but once it grows some it will. And then my parents told me when it does get a little longer that i cant spike it or they will cut it super short. -_- are u freakin serious?!?!?! WHY cant i do stuff with it? All cuz his parents didnt let him untill he moved out doesnt mean they have to do the same to me. I like messin with it and having crazy hair and its not like they ever see it, only if its the weekend. Gosh its so annoing how they cant let me just be me.

PARADE TIME!!

So today was the St. johns Parade, my second parade. I did better this time, i could ride alone but I had alot of problems geting on, i still did my best ive ever done geting on though. I think I complained too much though, i was really thirsty and tired, we rode too much before, oops.

It was fun hangin' with chris and nichole, even though chris went down the steps on his uni and got hurt....glad i didnt try.

So it has been a pretty rad day so far, have to babysit tonite and then play music morrow, thats gonna be pimp.

Blah

School
Hw
Hauling BBQs
Band Practice

Long day and no play make Indy a tired and sad boy

yay for life.....riiiigggghhttt

So first off, I want to say that matt leaving was the best thing that could happen to me. Its not that i hated him or anything, i loved him more then the world but I needed him to leave so I could start relying on myself for the God spirital stuff. I seriously think that I am as spirital as I ever been. More then a mission trip. I want to worship him as a job, the greatest job there could be, and then in my later years be a pastor. But the joy and feelings it brings to just play and sing to show him how i love Him.

Youth Group was good, I think people are starting to get the idea that we really do have to rely on God and not ourselves. It bugs me so much to think that im the only one that is like "uhh guys.....lets give it to God and not worry and accauly TRY to make things better" but i know im not the only so i feel good about that.

There was something else that i was gonna say but owell i forgot.

"The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
may the name of the LORD be praised."

I AM IM ME

I AM: I'M ME
WHO ARE YOU TO LOOK DOWN
AT WHAT I BELIEVE?
I'M ON TO YOUR THINKING
AND HOW YOU DECEIVE
WELL, YOU CAN'T ABUSE ME
I WON'T STAND NO MORE
YES, I KNOW THE REASONS
YES, I KNOW THE SCORE

I AM, AND I'LL BE
I WILL, YOU'LL SEE
I AM, AND I'LL BE
I AM: I'M ME

HOW I TRIED TO PLEASE YOU
LIVE THE WAY YOU SAID
DO THE THINGS THAT YOU DO
LIKE THE LIVING DEAD
THEN THE TRUTH IT HIT ME
GOT ME OFF MY KNEES
IT'S MY LIFE I'M LIVING
I'LL LIVE AS I PLEASE

I AM, AND I'LL BE
I WILL, YOU'LL SEE
I AM, AND I'LL BE
I AM: I'M ME

NOW'S THE TIME TO STAND TALL
START YOUR LIFE ANEW
FREEDOM LIES IN YOUR HEART
NOW'S THE TIME FOR YOU

I AM, AND I'LL BE
I WILL, YOU'LL SEE
I AM, AND I'LL BE
I AM: I'M ME
I AM, I'M ME
I AM, I'M ME
CAN'T YOU SEE?, CAN'T YOU SEE?
I'M ME, I'M ME, ME, ME, ME, ME
I AM: I'M ME
I AM: I'M ME
CAN'T YOU SEE?, CAN'T YOU SEE?
I'M ME, I'M ME, I'M ME

So my parents are being annoing and forcing me to cut my hair, and its really really stupid. They keep saying when i do the mohawk its because im trying to stand out and "make a point" which im not, i just love doing stuff with my hair, whats wrong with that?? It just really really pisses me off because it makes no sence and i have to get it cut right before the parade. -_- are u joking me? i dont want to be iching and lookin like an idiot out in the hot sun for 2-3 hours. Why cant i just be my own person and they let me? all cuz their parents didnt let them while they lived at home doesnt mean it has to apply to me now, they can end the parent tarrantry. I just feel like yelling and cussing. GAH!

I don't wanna live, I dont wanna breathe
I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream

Going for a run

wow i feel great, i went running with mindy and michael and it felt nice. it was all good untill we got on the other side of murry, i started to have cramps in my ab area and i really didnt want to stop or anything cuz i felt bad for kinda pushing my way into mindy and michael's running thing they do and didnt want to slow them down. but it felt really awesome to have both of them cheer me on and help, i started doing some breathing thing and was better. Iono how far it was, im guessing about 5 miles altogether but we walked alot of the way back. Then a good friend started making me think about things that i know i really should have and they made me want to talk to God about it.

It was a good day overall!!

Today

"Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone." Col 4:5-6

So earlier at school, near the end of lunch, a friend acted like he was gonna steal my nalgene and he took and and started to walk off. Having people do this so many times before it bothered me so I went after him and grabbed his backpack. He then turned around and put his hand around my neck. This guy is pretty big, hes taller then me and about another 100 Ibs or so bigger. So there wasnt much I could do to fight it. So he had his hand around my neck and told me that grabbing his backpack wasnt cool cuz it costed alot. Me, not wanting to make a scene or having "the man" come and break us apart tried to get his hand off my neck and get my nalgene. Then once I had he told me that he could have me on the floor bloody in a minute and they would need an ambeance to get me out. So when he said that I just stared into his eyes, I felt in my heart that he never would and wanted to test him but didnt. The whole time "what would God want me to do?" was running through my head. It was hard for me to try to show Gods love for him and act like God would want. So instead of pushing him to the edge I just said "come on guys" while still lookin in his eye and then took off with the boys. I felt pretty cool when I did that, felt like I was the leader.

Then when the bell rang I was on my way to French and he came up to me and apologized and gave excuses of how people were just being dicks to him and what not which I half expected from him but I knew that he was sorry and didnt mean to do that. Ive know him for almost 2 years now so its all good to me and I forgave him right there when he apoligized.

But that verse, reading it now really just make me think like, I could have done things different and have handled it poorly but if I did would he still have apologized? So I felt some better when I saw that verse and knew I atleast tried to do the right thing. Jesus said "You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men." It is our job to make sure that the world doesnt lose it's saltiness and becomes bland and evil.

So that is my day and thinking, good work to all you hard working christians!! =>

Today

So I think im turning "scene" whatever that means. Ive had a few people now say I was...and I think wearin a bandana would be totaly rad. Oh and fauxhawks are cool too.

Bible lit was really good today, we talked more about Jesus and his preachings. I got alot out of it. I was glad.

Blah

So I started getting grumpy today....just some comments were made to me which got me in a really bad mood. Owell.....another day morrow and another chem test which i probly will fail cuz the teacher cant teach.

Im Tumbling After!

The other day while I was driving home my world was shaken
It occurred to me that I had left too many risks untaken
I'm always sitting here just waiting for a revelation
Is it ever gonna come?

All this searching yet my destiny is still unfound
Makes me realize this world will always let me down
So it seems that the only hope I ever had
Was everything that You are

I'm falling down
Tumbling after You
I'm overwhelmed
Tripping over simple truth
In all I've found
There's nothing that's more beautiful
Than what I've found in You

You could always see right through the front I'd offer You
Not believing my excuses, waiting for the truth
When You could have turned Your back
And walked away from me
You, You picked me up instead

So we'll turn another page and change the way I look at You
And maybe I'll begin to understand what You went through
Not content to leave me wandering and unaware
You took my hand instead
Yeah, You lead me to the edge

You're everything that I ever needed
Now I wanna believe this time
That You would love me
That You would say I'm Yours, I'm Yours, I'm Yours

Im Almost A Hippie

So I found out, the hard way, that its good to take your own advice. I was wanting to tell someone last nite to stop thinking and just do what you feel in your heart. And then later I started thinking and it just got me in alot more trouble then I really wanted. Owell I guess since everything is ok theres no major harm done. Atleast I learned.

FRUSTERATED!

WHAT DO I DO??????
God please help me, I want to do one thing but then I want to do another!
Help
Me
Please.

Oh, Burn In Hell!

WELCOME TO THE ABANDONED LAND
COME ON IN CHILD, TAKE MY HAND
HERE THERE'S NO WORK OR PLAY
ONLY ONE BILL TO PAY
THERE'S JUST FIVE WORDS TO SAY
AS YOU GO DOWN, DOWN, DOWN

YOU'RE GONNA BURN IN HELL
OH, BURN IN HELL

YOU CAN'T BELIEVE ALL THE THINGS I'VE DONE WRONG IN MY LIFE
WITHOUT EVEN TRYING I'VE LIVED ON THE EDGE OF A KNIFE
WELL, I'VE PLAYED WITH FIRE, BUT I DON'T WANT TO GET MYSELF BURNED
TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE, SO I THINK THAT IT'S TIME FOR A TURN

BEFORE I BURN IN HELL
OH, BURN IN HELL

TAKE A GOOD LOOK IN YOUR HEART, TELL ME WHAT DO YOU SEE?
IT'S BLACK AND IT'S DARK, NOW IS THAT HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE?
IT'S UP TO YOU, WHAT YOU DO WILL DECIDE YOUR OWN FATE
MAKE YOUR CHOICE NOW FOR TOMORROW MAY BE FAR TOO LATE

AND THEN YOU'LL BURN IN HELL
HEAR NO EVIL, DON'T YOU
SEE NO EVIL, DON'T YOU
OH, BURN IN HELL
LAY NO EVIL DOWN ON ME
YOU'RE GONNA BURN IN HELL
SPEAK NO EVIL, DON'T YOU
THINK NO EVIL, DON'T YOU
OH, BURN IN HELL
PLAY WITH EVIL, 'CAUSE I'M FREE

So I heard this song on the radio today and I love Twisted Sister but when I heard it, it really spoke to me. Just how lately I've been feeling like I've tried to be a better person. Be more nice to people, help random people out, ya' know, the good things. So when I heard this song it was a nice reminder just to keep it up and be a good person.

So tonite I went with my fam to the Palmer wedding reception and Im glad I did. I was a little worried that I wasnt going to have anyone to really hang with but then Zack, Kristin, Kelsey, Katie and Tiff were there so it was good...plus travis..but it was a good time. Then I got to see the side of someone which, to tell the truth, I havnt really been fair to ever and just always had the attitude that Im not going to like them. But I really enjoyed them today and the last few days. So that is something I am deffently thankful for, is that God is allowing me to be more open and accept this person, when at times I just wanted to hate them. Thank you God.

Christian Up!

Job13: 5 If only you would be altogether silent!
For you, that would be wisdom.

Thats how I was feeling last nite at YG if any of you were wondering. I felt that I didnt know exactly what to say, and if I were to say what i wanted then it would cause problems. So i just stayed quite. But I also thought that some of you should have taken that advice.

Proverbs 3: 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

I also felt this, and that instead of talking we needed to do THIS. That we can talk about the problems all we want but the only way they are going to get better is if we trust God with them and believe that if we give them to him he will make them better.

So I made this picture. I want to explain it in two parts. First of it to us humans. The cross is God inside us and being a christian. Now you can see white smoke trying to come from the cross but the color smoke is covering it. The red is our pain and suffering. When we are going through those times we often get hooked up on them and dont let God heal us or shine through. The green is our wickedness and evil. How we do things that hurt one another and are cruel. The yellow is our joy and happiness. Since when we are happy and everything is great we tend to forget that God helped us get there. And finaly the blue. The blue is whats in our heart and our connection with God. Sometimes those inner feelings can start to show if we are slipping away. All these things start to cover up God's love and showing the world that we are christians.

Then the second part to the picture is of it to Jesus. The red is obveously the blood and pain he shed for you. The green is the crown of thorns he wore and the wipings he took. The yellow is the light he brought to the world. And the blue is the holy spirit that lives in all of us now thanks to Jesus.

So that is my little rant for today, I have just been feeling that lately some of us havnt been the best of christians and it is deffently something that i am working on, showing people that I love God and doing good deeds.

Pressing On

Is anyone else as pumped about God as I am?? I mean DOESNT GOD ROCK???? Im sitting here listening to The Real By Nevertheless and its just getting me so ready for the day and to let God's love shine.

Then theres the part of me that is just so grateful for how I have been growing lately. I have really felt God but it sadens me that I dont see the same growth in my friends. If anything I see them going in the other direction. Not wanting God but fun and games.

Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that, I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.

Life Group!

So at life group we went for a nice jog, about a mile michael thinks. It felt nice to just get out and move around. It made me feel good. I didnt want to slow either when the others did(they had been running all day). I wanted to take off and just run, run like forest gump!