I feel...not hopeless but around that area. At this moment I just feel that there isnt anything I can really do about how I am feeling. I feel very jelous of people and their relationships with others, if they are BF and GF or not. I feel like I have to wait because thats the rules, but I dont want to. I want to just tell her how I feel. I want to be able to hold her.
Then there is what I feel God wants. I feel like he is telling me to hold off just a little to make sure that the feelings I have and have had for the past month or so are real. I feel that He is telling me that there is someone great out there and he doesn't want me to miss them because I was getting my feelings mixed up. That I was looking in all the wrong places for that girl. Instead of looking at just "one night stands" i should be looking at someone I would care about for a while atleast. Hes telling me that the last one didnt work out so great cuz it was focused on the wrong idea and started in a bad way.
Then God is telling me to have Patience and Devotion. To stick it out because no one else will and it will show that I truly do care about everything that is going on and as hard as I try to seem that I am not involved that I am in the center of it all because of that choice to never ever leave until I have to for college or purposes like that. Not because of something I think. A cake has milk, eggs, butter, flour and sugar in it for a reason. And all because the flour thinks it doesn't fit in doesn't give it the right to just leave when it was willed to be in that cake. Because the flour left and how the cake now seems to look, the sugar leaves and then following it the butter does. Now even though the cake was willed to be a cake with all those ingredients, because they were so greedy and did not think of the cake as a whole, it seems ruined. But because of the greatness of the willer, instead of a cake you have a morning breakfast, Eggs and Milk! Then once the ingredients that left see how great it turned out, even though it wasn't a cake, they wish they had been able to be used like the milk and eggs. They wish that the willer had used them in suck an amazing way but because of their own evil and sin, they ruined that chance. And even though evil and sin ruined a cake, the willer was able to turn it into something good.
Then there is what I feel God wants. I feel like he is telling me to hold off just a little to make sure that the feelings I have and have had for the past month or so are real. I feel that He is telling me that there is someone great out there and he doesn't want me to miss them because I was getting my feelings mixed up. That I was looking in all the wrong places for that girl. Instead of looking at just "one night stands" i should be looking at someone I would care about for a while atleast. Hes telling me that the last one didnt work out so great cuz it was focused on the wrong idea and started in a bad way.
Then God is telling me to have Patience and Devotion. To stick it out because no one else will and it will show that I truly do care about everything that is going on and as hard as I try to seem that I am not involved that I am in the center of it all because of that choice to never ever leave until I have to for college or purposes like that. Not because of something I think. A cake has milk, eggs, butter, flour and sugar in it for a reason. And all because the flour thinks it doesn't fit in doesn't give it the right to just leave when it was willed to be in that cake. Because the flour left and how the cake now seems to look, the sugar leaves and then following it the butter does. Now even though the cake was willed to be a cake with all those ingredients, because they were so greedy and did not think of the cake as a whole, it seems ruined. But because of the greatness of the willer, instead of a cake you have a morning breakfast, Eggs and Milk! Then once the ingredients that left see how great it turned out, even though it wasn't a cake, they wish they had been able to be used like the milk and eggs. They wish that the willer had used them in suck an amazing way but because of their own evil and sin, they ruined that chance. And even though evil and sin ruined a cake, the willer was able to turn it into something good.
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She's out there- don't worry :-) Here's something my mom told me ages ago:
"God will never make you settle for less than His best for you. He has someone specifically for you, and you'll know when He shows them to you. You never have to settle for less than His best for you when it comes to who you're in a relationship with."
Isn't dating pathetic? all the thoughts that go through your mind of are they the one, and what if I'm missing 'the one' by being wiht them, or what if they're the one... I don't want to miss it! He'll show each person when it's 'the one'... we just have to wait for Him to tell us when the timing's right and we're supposed to know =) until then it's just sorta UGH tho isn't it? :P
Jeeminy Sir Dr. - are you sure you're talking specifically to Indy? :-P haha nevermind, don't answer that ;P
As an non-intersted 3rd party all I have to offer you is this.
You're in High School. You shouldn't be worrying about "the one". You really shouldn't be considering "the one" until you're out of college! High School dating and even college dating are meant to find what you want or don't want, what works and doesn't work, and what you wish for.
SO! Sit back, wait for her to come to you, because if it's supposed to be god will bring her to thee!
Haha. My words of wisdom for today.
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