Friends Will Be Friends..

So I sat here tonight chilling, listening to music and I saw a bullitin on myspace that an old friend that I saw a few days ago posted so I wanted to see what was going on with her. I was looking at her pics and I was just amazing. They looked nothing like I remembered. I was too afraid to send them a message saying hey whats up because I didnt want to lose the image I had of them, I didnt want to think of them differently by hearing what they had to say. I already had that happen with a different friend and he changed drasticly. These people, I dont see how tehy can be so different. Or atleast of they send an image of being so different. Got me thinking of if they saw me what they would think. Would they go, "wow he has changed" or would they say "he looks different but hes the same Indy I knew"? Gets me thinking is all. Gets me scared that they have lost what they had. Thats also why I dont want to talk to them because thats the one thing on my mind when Im talking to them and they know it and if its not what I want they must not want to talk to me. I just want to yell at them until they go OHHH Indy your right...what have I been doing? I want to shake them so they will see what they are doing and what they will turn out to be if they continue. Its so frusterating because they are just that type of person. They are the person that would lose what gave them the twinkle in their eye. And all I can do is sit back and watch them lose everything they once had because I'm scared of losing the thought of them I'm happy with. And I feel that my lil chat with them for 10 mins wont make a difference whats so ever, that they will go "oh Indy, when will you get off my back?" It just makes me hurt on the inside...