Stars

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinking 'bout everyone,
Everyone you looks so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe to start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home

I've been thinking about everyone
Everyone you looks so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself.
Yeah!

Everyone, Everyone feels so lonely
Everyone, yeah everyone feels so empty
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I feel like myself
When I look at the stars
The stars, I see someone...

Haggen

Wow.

It's Crazy.

So I am pretty much the fry chef. I get to do all the hot food in the deli which is kinda cool. I like doing the cooking like I am, but at the same time I'm not accualy making the food, just taking frozen stuff throwing it in the deep friers for so long and then putting them out. But then at the same time I am cooking some things like the chicken, all the chicken I prepare and what not. So the rotisery ones I have to man-handle and season up and then cook while the baked pieces i just season up and cook. But it is pretty awesome, I know its a good step in a career if I ever do cook stuff cuz I've been a waiter for a year, have worked as a dishwasher and with the cooks and now I'm a fry cook pretty much. Yet at the same timeI dont want to be like some of the people there that are in there 40s or 50s and are making like $9-$11 an hour and arn't really going anywhere..which I don't want to be. Heck I really hope I'm not there for more than 5 years but who knows.

So thats how I'm doing with my new job, its really different working more than 3 hours but its starting to go by faster. I'm sure when I work morrow at Creekside it will just fly by, but at the same time I do more there..

17 Reasons Not To Grow Up

I cant believe morrow is my birthday. It just doesnt feel like it...this year has gone by so fast. Today at work my boss came and congragulated me for it and also being there for a year. it sure hasn't felt like a year. It feels like just yesterday I started there and was the new guy and now im like 3rd in charge..so its weird. And being 18...to tell the truth I havnt really been looking forward to it, I guess it just makes me feel rushed to grow up. I like the fact that I am the only one of my friends that is still 17 and now thats gone. But it will nice also being 18 so I dont have stupid curfew all the time where I have to go home when everyone gets off work and things start. But we'll see what happens. Once again I start a new job the day after my bday, that will be cool..Haggen part/full time. Major molah!

Maps

So I've been thinking alot today about how so much is going to change so soon it feels and how much i dont really like that. But then I think about it and everyone has their stuff and things to worry about and in the end this is what comes to mind:

And thats when I just to the point where I just stop caring cuz I can whine and complain all I want but I cant change what happened and I have to hold my head up high and do the best I can. I mean with this new job, I know its going to be weird but when it comes down to it I will rock because I have good experience with customers and its food I'm working with, which will only open more doors since so far thats all I've worked with. And its me we're talking about...give me a month and I'll be the one running that place, thats how it is at creekside jezz.