100...And still more to say

You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite

pretty strong words huh? I believe they fit you well though. And you were right. I am a people pleaser. I just want the people im with to be happy about me, dont want them to be mad or w/e but they all seem to end up that way. If i would stand up for what i believe then who knows what could happen, i could be such a better person probly. I feel like i pour out my soul to you. I feel like i try so hard to make you happy just so i can have a "thank" or "your rad" but i never really get one. Theres just something about you that makes me want to please you. And specialy when your not feeling good, i feel like i need to go talk to you or be there for you...why though? It never changes anything...maybe makes u a lil happy but you never like me anymore. You never think of my any higher then you already do. I always believed that you and me were ment to be together, iono why. There was always just something about you. For over a year and a half ive tried so hard for you to feel the same, but it only seems to drive you away. And then the little hope i have inside me telling me after college that i might have a better chance, that things will be better for everyone. Then i have people telling me to just move on, that it will never be. And i dont know who to trust. I dont want to wait for you when i could miss some other really amazing person. But i dont want to pass you by.....i dont want to get impaitent. I pray to God over and over to give me the answer, to tell me what to do and i just dont know where that answer is, if its the one in me or the one that friends consently tell me or if its just do what i want.

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you
I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you

I feel like this guy. I feel like ive done everything i could to make you like me. Everything but it never works...thats when i just want to go find someone else cuz why should i go through all this crap just for you? but if your as great as i think then thats why. The prize. The golden pearl. The best person in the world. I only wish you would read this, that you accualy cared right now....maybe though, maybe one day you will see. I know things for you are pretty hard right now, but, heres my famous quote, Dont worry. Gods in control. I know its probly hard to really see it but he is. God is always there and always doing his best for your best. Its just when we mess things up by not letting him do his job that things go trés bad. Laugh, Love, rock n roll all nite AND PARTY EVERYDAY!!

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

When I was talking to you, Miss Elaineous, I had this song stuck in my head. Yes we did just sing it but still. Just how much everyone needs to do it, and how "it won't be long" which really is sad. But really, why dont you just lean on me? You seem so fearful to lean on anyone...and its sad. Ill be your friend. Ill help you, no matter what.