I'm handsome....like a mango

I gotta tell you what I'm feelin' inside, I could lie to myself, but it's true
There's no denying when I look in your eyes, girl I'm out of my head over you

I see my future when I look in your eyes
It took your love to make my heart come alive

There's a lot I want to tell you, but I don't know where to start
And I don't know what I'd do if you walked away

It seems the more I get to know you, the more I need to make you see
You're everything I need, yeah

The King of Hearts, when she's layin' next to me
Shinin' like a jewel tonight, love is gonna rule tonight
Yeah I'm gonna be the only one, to be King of Hearts

Madness in Humanity

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. Ender , however, was trying to figure out a way to forestall vengence. To keep him from taking him in a pack tomorrow. I have to win this now, and for all time, or I'll fight it everyday and it will get worse and worse. Ender knew the unspoken rules of manly warfare, even though he was only six. it was forebidden to strike the opponent who lay helpless on the ground; only an animal would do that.

Life, Wraped Up

We try to come as close as we can to what we
can’t and not get caught, but, instead, let’s turn
and run towards the light!

We’re dancing on the fence.
We’re losing innocence,
but we can’t expect to live like this forever.
We weren’t made to live like this, no never!

This is something that has been on my mind alot lately...just the fact of everyone going off to college and moving on to new and more exciting things but now they are coming home to tell all about it. Its just the fact that you always thought you knew them and who they were but now we're finding out who they really are, what they really believe. At the same time its nice to know that only a few of us really are true to our word, true to ourselves and it makes us even more sure of who we are and what we want to be. Its just interesting because with friends I meet that were already like that I just accepted it as them but when I have friends who are just turning into that I know its not really who they should be and it kills me to know. Double standard I guess but its real. Yet at the same time you wonder what they think of you now, how you've changed and what you have turned into. If its someone who you said you never thought you'd be or if its someone who just blends into the mist.

On another note, I'm starting to come back to my old self on trusting God. The last few days I've just layed myself down and said ok god, I trust you with this stuff and I know in the end it will turn out to something amazing and thats what I want. It really is worth the waiting, so dont wuss out halfway through because its starting to get hard. Just know that if it really truly is what you think it is then it cant go wrong.

Christmas is here...i think it might accualy be my first white Christmas ever..which is cool but at the same time kinda weird and I'm starting to hate the snow cuz there are days where I cant do anything or go anywhere besides work. I can drive in it just fine and its not hard or anything but its the parentals that disagree. I guess they just dont understand that with this type of weather im not going to mess around cuz I love my car too much to try to go 45 down murry while its 6 inches deep of snow. And it scares the crap outa me to do that cuz any minute I could hit ice or loss control. But my car handles great in it and I'm having fun. Yet at the same time I cant wait for it all to be gone and have alot of things just back to normal..including work. I feel like I work my butt off and then i get a check thats less than $300 which isnt something I wanna see. I'm used to $400 and than another $200 but i barley made $400 between the two. I cant live off of $400 every two weeks..I need $600 lol. Ive been getting used to the comfort of having some extra cash to throw around but I've been making do with what Ive been getting cuz I have to, so I know once it goes back to what it should be I'll be saving tons for some things I really want like my car. So much to do with the car, fix some body issues, fix some things with the steering, get new rims, get a new paint job, finish my audio system which I am sooo pumped to do cuz its already bumping pretty nicely but with 2 12" subs at 1200 watts, WOW thats going to sound amazing. ALSO I have this trust fund thing that I should be getting sooner or later which will be a good amount that I'm going to put in another account and just have it build but I'm going to use some of that for a lil surprise. So after Christmas if I get the money ask tell me to show you my surprise and I will, its going to be awesome I cant wait.

Whatever helps you sleep at nite

tell whatever yourself what you need to in order to sleep at nite, but its what keeps you up at nite that you got to explain to yourself. but remember its only yourself that you have to explain urself to, no matter what others tell you as long as YOU know the truth and can sleep with it. Dont be afraid to admit that you have a heart full of black, because even if you dont feel the black that is in you, you do feel something sometime. Dont spend you life as an explaination but an exclaimation. Let people know who you were, good or bad, and they will remember you, not for where your heart was, but what it was that you did with it. Dont be afraid to conquer mountains that others would never even dream of climbing. The past is the past and all you can do is smile, say it was worth it and move forward with those experiences. Embrass life and dont be afraid to live it to the fullest that you can. BUT dont get too caught up living it to forget who it is that is living it.

Just tell me theres no chance, so i dont have to worry about accualy having to make a choice or thinking about the whole situation. Just tell me that I have something that I cant throw away, something that accualy means alot to me. Just tell me anything that I dont want to hear so that I dont have to question myself

Hide Your Heart

Johnny saw her riding on a street car named Desire, his fate was sealed
She could see him coming like a hundred other guys, it was no big deal
Rosa had a lover on the shady side of town, Tito, he was king of the streets She was his possession like a jewel on his crown, Johnny better run, better run

Better hide your heart, better hold on tight
Say your prayers, 'cause there's trouble tonight
When pride and love battle with desire
Better hide your heart, 'cause you're playing with fire

The ride was over but the story doesn't end, he took her heart
She looked him in the eye and said they couldn't meet again
You could see the trouble start
The word went out that Rosa's messin' with someone, it was on the street
Tito looked for Johnny with a vengeance and a gun
Johnny better run, better run

Johnny's holdin' Rosa on a rooftop in the night, as time stood still
They couldn't hear him coming 'til he had them both in sight
You could feel a chill
A shot ran out like thunder and the blood was on her hands, with nothing won
When someone lies dying, lovers finally understand

When pride and love battle with desire
Better hide your heart, 'cause you're playing with fire

Joker

Some people call me the space cowboy, yeah
Some call me the gangster of love
Some people call me maurice
Cause I speak of the pompitous of love

People talk about me, baby
Say Im doin you wrong, doin you wrong
Well, dont you worry baby
Dont worry
Cause Im right here, right here, right here, right here at home

Cause Im a picker
Im a grinner
Im a lover
And Im a sinner
I play my music in the sun

Im a joker
Im a smoker
Im a midnight toker
I sure dont want to hurt no one

Youre the cutest thing
That I ever did see
I really love your peaches
Want to shake your tree
Lovey-dovey, lovey-dovey, lovey-dovey all the time
Ooo-eee baby, Ill sure show you a good time

Glycerine

Must be your skin I'm sinking in
must be for real cuz now I can feel
and I didn't mind
it's not my kind
not my time to wonder why
everything's gone white
and everything's gray
now you're here now you're away
I don't want this
remember that
I'll never forget where you're at
don't let the days go by

if I treated you bad
you bruise my face
couldn't love you more
you got a beautiful taste

I needed you more
when we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
it might just be
clear simple and plain
that's just fine
that's just one of my names

My Girl's Ex Boyfriend

When he was seeing her
You could see he had his doubts
And now he's missing her
Because he knows he's missing out
Now it's haunting him
The memories like a ghost
He's so terrified
Cause no one else even comes close

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

So then, along comes me,
This undeserving mess (undeserving mess)
Who would believe my life
Would be so blessed (life would be so blessed)
Two years ago
He left all that debris (left all that debris)
Who would of known
It would be everything I need

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend

If it wasn't for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn't for him
I wouldn't know my best friend
If it wasn't for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn't for him
He would be as happy as me

She and I settled down you can bet
That he is going to have to settle for less
He's someone that I would hate to be
I got the girl and he's left with just the memory.

He's a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl's ex-boyfriend


If it wasn't for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn't for him
I wouldn't know my best friend
If it wasn't for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn't for him
He would be as happy as me

Human

Don't think feel or hurt

Just live move and breathe

Instinct is a great gift

Good Times

I saw this on Jesse's myspace and had a good laugh:

"Best Quotes Ever!!!!
jleopold4553 (11:28:04 PM): hows that lady hunt coming along?
Starbearer POH (11:28:16 PM): uhhh i cant rememer her name... "

That deffently sounds like something I would say...and do..

WELL this week has been totaly fun and crazy. I applied for a supervisor/manager position at the old folk home and am still waiting on hearing back..I assume that I am going to get it but still with having to wait makes ya wonder. Haggen is starting to get under my skin but with a few night shifts I am feeling better about it all, just hoping I'm not there too much longer. I will miss alot of people and things but at the same time I wont miss some people and things. Just gotta move on with life and climb the latter and see how high it gets...but be sure to have fun while u climb it and dont be afraid to climb someone else's latter.

For What Its Worth

There's something happening here
What it is ain't exactly clear
There's a man with a gun over there
Telling me I got to beware

I think it's time we stop, children, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

There's battle lines being drawn
Nobody's right if everybody's wrong
Young people speaking their minds
Getting so much resistance from behind

I think it's time we stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

What a field-day for the heat
A thousand people in the street
Singing songs and carrying signs
Mostly say, hooray for our side

It's time we stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

Paranoia strikes deep
Into your life it will creep
It starts when you're always afraid
You step out of line, the man come and take you away

We better stop, hey, what's that sound
Everybody look what's going down

Where Did I Go Wrong?

the sad part is i knew my choice all along

i have to

its what i wanted all along, so wouldnt i be stupid not to?

Long Time

I know I'm cocky

But I'm proud of it.

I know I'm obnoxious

But I'm crazy like that.

I know I'm large

But I'm in charge.

I know who I am, so don't go wasting your time trying to tell me everything that's wrong with who I am cuz with complete honestly, I could care less because I am in love with who I am and what I will become. I am what I am and nothing can change that, its not my fault that I care so much about my jobs that I do my best each and every day. It's not my fault that I am so connected with music that I use lyrics and metifores to express how I feel. It's not my fault if I put my heart and soul in to something that I own so I can be proud of it. But most importantly of all, its not my fault that YOU don't understand.

History

fake it, your out of directions
fake it, you dont belong
fake it, you feel like ya back stabed
woowoo your suck a hypocrite

you gave up on your dreams along the way

White Americans what nothin better to do
Why don't ya kick yourself out, you're
an immigrant too.

Who's using who?
What should we do?
Well, you can't be a pimp and a prostitute, too.


And they try to tell us that we don't belong
But that's alright, we're millions strong
You are my people, you are my crowd, this is our music, we love it loud

Yeah, and nobody's gonna change me, 'cos that's who I am

I'm no meterologist but I'm pretty sure its rainin hoes

Ego is good, its the reason that guy wants you to be his surgant, its the reason that shes boarder line attracted to you. In medicine, have of pulling it off is believing that your the biggest smartest bad-ass of a docter to ever walk these halls. As I ganster leaned down the hallways in the rad new wheels I found by the dumpster, I couldn't help but think how ego affects everything. Without a healthy dose of it you cant trust yourself to do what you really want. But with too much ego you could end up losing something you still wished you had. But with the right amount, nothing can get in your way.

I think we'll be alright.

Change

People dont change. People will never change, they will always be the same people forever. The only thing that ever does change is the atrabutes of their personality that they show, but in the end, they will be the same person as they always were.

Too bad for those people who need to right?

His Story

you see behind this borish provado of yours theres this parilyzing fear
of letting anybody in your life. and it wasnt cuz you wernt loved when you
were a kid, its because your so ego-centered that the love wasnt enough. so
you pulled pigtails and you pushed the fat kids into the dirt so no one
could ignore little parry.

Relationships, relationships are so frigal that it only takes one little offense and it can snowball on ya. And if that snowball starts to pick up speed god forbid, you better tuck and go my friend. BAM the shines off the apple, and thats when you realize that that pretty little girl you married isnt a pretty little girl at all, no shes a man-eater. And im not talkin about the ohh wow here she comes kind of man eater, Im talkin about the kind that uses your dignity as a dish towel to wipe up any shreads of manhood you have that might be stuck inside the sink. Of course I may have tormented her time to time but honest to God thats what I thought marrige was about so much so that at the end of that relationship i honestly dont know who i hated more, her or me. I used to sit around and wonder why our friends wernt trying to destroy eachother like we were. And here it turns out the answer was pretty simple, they wernt unhappy. We were.

Relationships dont work the way they do on television and in the movies. will they wont they and then they finally do and their happy forever. Give me a break 9 out of 10 of them will end because they wernt right for each other to begin with, and half the ones that get married get divorced anyway. And im telling you right now for all this stuff, i have not become a cinic, i havnt. Yes i do believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and you know, in some cultures a chicken. You can call me a sucker, i dont care. Cuz i do believe in it. Bottom line, couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everyone else but they dont let it weigh them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time, if theyre right and real lucky. One of them will say something.

Why are we waiting

So let’s go back now to the times that were fun
I’m so sick of the lies that someone else’s mind has won
I don’t care what they think, I don’t care who all cares
I just don’t want you to leave

So get your car, I’ll meet you sometime tonight
I don’t care what we do, we can get in a fight
I’m so tired of living in this small, enclosed can
So let me out, we’ll have some fun, I’ll let you let me make the plans

When you get dumped you dont sit around feeling sorry about yourself. You go out and find another girl, a better girl.

Good idea.

Some people are so gay

I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
are you at one
or do you lie
we live in a wheel
where everyone steals
but when we rise it's like strawberry fields

I coudn't change though I wanted to
could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me

I needed you more
when we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
it might just be
clear simple and plain

Stars

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinking 'bout everyone,
Everyone you looks so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe to start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home

I've been thinking about everyone
Everyone you looks so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself.
Yeah!

Everyone, Everyone feels so lonely
Everyone, yeah everyone feels so empty
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I feel like myself
When I look at the stars
The stars, I see someone...

Haggen

Wow.

It's Crazy.

So I am pretty much the fry chef. I get to do all the hot food in the deli which is kinda cool. I like doing the cooking like I am, but at the same time I'm not accualy making the food, just taking frozen stuff throwing it in the deep friers for so long and then putting them out. But then at the same time I am cooking some things like the chicken, all the chicken I prepare and what not. So the rotisery ones I have to man-handle and season up and then cook while the baked pieces i just season up and cook. But it is pretty awesome, I know its a good step in a career if I ever do cook stuff cuz I've been a waiter for a year, have worked as a dishwasher and with the cooks and now I'm a fry cook pretty much. Yet at the same timeI dont want to be like some of the people there that are in there 40s or 50s and are making like $9-$11 an hour and arn't really going anywhere..which I don't want to be. Heck I really hope I'm not there for more than 5 years but who knows.

So thats how I'm doing with my new job, its really different working more than 3 hours but its starting to go by faster. I'm sure when I work morrow at Creekside it will just fly by, but at the same time I do more there..

17 Reasons Not To Grow Up

I cant believe morrow is my birthday. It just doesnt feel like it...this year has gone by so fast. Today at work my boss came and congragulated me for it and also being there for a year. it sure hasn't felt like a year. It feels like just yesterday I started there and was the new guy and now im like 3rd in charge..so its weird. And being 18...to tell the truth I havnt really been looking forward to it, I guess it just makes me feel rushed to grow up. I like the fact that I am the only one of my friends that is still 17 and now thats gone. But it will nice also being 18 so I dont have stupid curfew all the time where I have to go home when everyone gets off work and things start. But we'll see what happens. Once again I start a new job the day after my bday, that will be cool..Haggen part/full time. Major molah!

Maps

So I've been thinking alot today about how so much is going to change so soon it feels and how much i dont really like that. But then I think about it and everyone has their stuff and things to worry about and in the end this is what comes to mind:

And thats when I just to the point where I just stop caring cuz I can whine and complain all I want but I cant change what happened and I have to hold my head up high and do the best I can. I mean with this new job, I know its going to be weird but when it comes down to it I will rock because I have good experience with customers and its food I'm working with, which will only open more doors since so far thats all I've worked with. And its me we're talking about...give me a month and I'll be the one running that place, thats how it is at creekside jezz.

Re: More Stupid Stuff

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.

More Stupid Stuff

So one thing that I've been noticing thats coming up more and more lately is the whole idea of people suffering, with one thing or another, and how God lets this happen. To me it comes down to a persons faith to question this. It kills me so much to hear people using that as an excuse to not believe in God because so many people are hurting or something happened to them in their life where they went "where is God now?" It just seems rediculous to me...cuz I dont understand how people have to question that sort of stuff. Stuff happens for a reason and you move on, deal with it and figure out what good comes out of it. I really truly dont understand how stuff like that can effect a persons faith. The crap in the world is going to be there no matter what so wouldnt you like to believe that there is a God that will help you through it all? I'm not going to tell you it is going to be nice and easy no matter what now cuz you have God but I am telling you that it will be easier.

Moral of the story:
Just don't try to understand everything and just be happy. Don't let stupid things make you question your faith.

Which To Bury

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

cause you took this too far

Merle Davis Hobos

So tonight me jesse and seth went to DQ and got blizzards, we used our card so we had an extra one. On the way out we saw two hobos sleeping at merle davis so we were like wer should give it to them. One woke up so we we're like yeah deff do it but jesse was too scared I guess so I was like here give it to me. I walked over and said "hey we have an extra blizzard, would you like it?" and the guy was like yea thank you and gave it to his wife who was there also sleeping. It just made me happy to know that I might have helped in some way, by giving it to them cuz the other 2 wernt going to do it. The guy was so appreciative too and thats what made me feel so good about it, to where I would be willing to do it again.

Never Give Up

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Taking out the trash

-Our Identity is wraped up in Christ's
-The reason why we can have victory over sin is because he had victory over sin
-Victory is in a relationship and not in rules and regulations.

-When Christ comes back, we're transformed.
-No more sin, no more stupidity
-Ultimate stupid thing we do, sin.

-Continuealy set our minds on heavenly things.
-set your heart on things above, focus on pray

-Activly put to death the trash
-make a list of the sins you need to tackle
-choose to put on your new identity
-mentaly circle the type of trash it is

What I hate

Is that whole real world thing, like when people say your in the real world now or something along those lines. its just the idea that for the past 17 years I've been somewhere else..where? Its just like, sure we have more responsibility and what not but still, its not like everything is changing. Most things are going to be the same. Owell, I guess I cant fix everything people say. Its just one of those things that bugs the heck out of me.

WE ARE NOT IN THE REAL WORLD NOW, WE HAVE BEEN THE WHOLE TIME.

You know who you are

You wanna know the weird defect that you both have that made you screw up like this? Your both human. Its human to want the best for you patients even if you cant follow your own advice, its human to get pasionate about something and then get complacent. its pretty hard to own up to your own short comings, like your own hypocricy. but once you do own up, you might be surprised you made a difference.

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly


Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Yes

I'm trading my sorrow
I'm trading my shame
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

I'm trading my sickness
I'm trading my pain
I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord

Chorus:
And we say yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord
Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord
Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen

I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned
Struck down but not destroyed
I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure
And his joy's gonna be my strength

Though the sorrow may last for the night
His joy comes with the morning

Life

So today I kept thinking about college and fall. Jesse and his bro were talking about next year and everyone is getting ready which is weird but still it just got me thinking of how...I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying here in beaverton to work and hopefully get there next year. It really makes you think, everyone is moving on and you just wonder where you messed up...where you went wrong and what you could have done to stop it. I mean, sure I'm trying to start this whole music thing but its not like i can just do it..I guess we just have to wait and see what the plan is. I've been offered some nice things and I'm a lil surprised but I know I will have it made next year working.

So if you havnt heard yet, I am starting a job at Haggen, working in the deli part to full time. Now, this wont take up much of my days so I am trying to work it where I can also stay at Creekside and do that in the evenings. I think its going to work out real nice. Almost everyone at Creekside is leaving and as much as I would like to be one of them at times I also want to be the one that saves the few that stay. I know if so many of them leave, as to 6 are most likely going to, it will be almost impossible for the 3 that arnt to make it work. So maybe things will change around there and I can use it to my advantage and get a raise hehe. We'll see what happens, alot is going to happen in the next few weeks. One of my favorite co workers is going to be the second of the bunch to leave and I'm dreading it. He started about 2 weeks after me and I've gotten pretty close with him, he would always drive me home. We've kinda got this thing too where we just make jokes about the other for like 2 hours and get the others involved and it just kinda brings it all together. I'm pretty scared for it, with out him because its always the nights that he doesnt work that are just boring and feels like work and I dont accualy enjoy it. Iono, I know i will still have my boss who i am tight with but it will still be weird.

Trusties

when you took away the scrubs, you took away the trust, and without trust everything falls apart. We all left thinking about how important trust is. Dr Cox let Elliot have her trust in human kind for a little while longer, Carla protected the trust we have in her by coming clean. As for Dr kelso, he knew that trusting us was probly foolish. Still, it was worth it.

My Nickname

The only problem here is you, ok? we're supost to be friends, your self estem is so wraped up in what you do. Your a doctor, thats all you are, thats how you define yourself. And you think your better than me because of it. Admit it, admit it right now or else I will never be able to respect you. Ok sometimes thats true. Your a good nurse. I'm a great nurse, you patrinizing jerk.



Sometimes the only way to take a really good look at your self is through someone else's eyes. And if your lucky, you will like what you see, or you'll learn from it. If you don't like what you see, you can only hope you havn't burned too many bridges.

My New Old Friend

That place is full of liers. We're doctors, that comes with the territory. Some patients just dont like telling the whole truth. Well I dont see why they have to do that. Maybe its cuz their proud, maybe its cuz their scared. Maybe its cuz telling the truth would make them too vulnerable.

Summer

Slow Ride, take it easy


Movie of the week: Dazed and Confused

God loves you, dont forget it

TCW

Shut up shut up shut up shut up! Who are you people to give me advice about anything? All you do is complain about your relationships all day long. And you know what, glare all you want big dog, cuz I'm not afraid of you. "Ohh no, Jordans only paying attention to the baby" that must be soo hard for Dr look-at-me! Isnt it, look-at-me! And you two, your arguing since you got engaged. Wow your probly the first couple to have ever done that ever, it cant be because your scared is it? And you, lets just forget for one second that a month ago you told me you couldnt be in a relationship with anyone, because for me, its accualy fun to watch you sabatoge a relationship from the outside, it really is. Honestly, the only thing that gives me comfert you guys is while sitting at home, staring at the ceiling wishing I just had someone to talk to, is knowing that none of you idiots know how lucky you are.

I dont think people are meant to be by themselves, thats why if you accualy find someone you care about, its important to let go of the little things, even if you cant let go all the way. Cuz nothing sucks more than feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around.


You see, the truth is you guys have been complaining about work since the second I got here, just dying for an excuse to blow it off, so maybe you should quit being pissed at me when you just hate your jobs.

**** You see, the truth is you guys have been complaining about each other since the second I got here, just dying for an excuse to break it off, so maybe you should quit being pissed at me when you just hate each other.

Golden

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower,
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief.
So dawn goes down to day,
Nothing gold can stay.

Stay gold, Ponyboy. Stay gold.


You'd better wise up, Pony... you get tough like me and you don't get hurt. You look out for yourself and nothing can touch you, man.

This is for everyone

People are soo stupid, ya know? I mean the when I got home and went to park the idiot next door parked right on the line and not straight which made it impossible for me to even try to manuver in the stall. But that made me think of my trouble parking at RJ's house so I somewhat understood. But what I'm talking about is when people automaticly just start being stupid and dont even think things through. They just think that they are right in whatever they are doing and continue. Like drivers who got 35 on murry which is 45, its just stupid! I just think it is rediculous and people should get smacked for the things they do. And some people just dont plain think at all. They get too worked up and full of themselves to even think about another and what is going on in their head. If people were to grow up a little and not be suck little girls about everything things wouldn't be so messed up.


PAY MORE ATTENTION TO WHAT YOUR DOING AND SAYING

Gah people. and Butt out of things that dont have anything to do with you, its real annoying

Wait

we’ll hit you with a beat, let’s

move for He has given us everything.

There isn’t a time, a place you can be,

not a place in your face that you cannot see,

back up your face are you talking, yea,

I said it’s grace, He will be with me every place.

And why now, everybody says it, why now,

and everybody says you go with

your flow and everybody knows,

and everybody sings and everybody brings it.

Dude, it was one second of doubt, since when do you care what people thing? I dont, but I care what you think. Since the day I met you, you treated me like I was the man, like I could accomplish everything. The bottom line is, if you care about someone, its pretty easy to make the sacrifice.

I Wont Give Up

Tell me whats your reason
You find me in this treason
I didnt think that Id come through
Then I thought that I failed You
I tell You that I still love You
Well I tell You that Im guilty, I messed up

I am here, and I'm with You now
And didn't think I could feel this way
I am here, and I'm with You now
Because You found me somehow

when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened

I'm trying so hard to forget all the lies that came right in,

I hate to sound so jaded
But it seems like nothing’s changing

My apathy for apologies is getting stronger
No, I can’t take this any longer
So why don’t you figure out if you want this or not
I know I said that I forgave you
But I don’t want to see you go through
All this pain of messing up this night over again

Everything is coming down
And I cant find my way around this town anymore.
So I walked out the door and waited for you to come.
But I couldnt figure out what it was for.
So now Im looking out still waiting for you to come,
and it seems like I cant do anything to help you.
But Im doing it all wrong.
I dont wanna be here anymore,
but I cant do it for you thats not what its for.
And I dont wanna look at the stars one more time,
and I think I can do it and Ill be fine.
I said Im not giving it to you this time Its for God,
nothing more, and I think Ill be fine.
You tied these strings around me
and choked me up to where I couldnt feel anything, and I just wanna move.
I cant sit here anymore,
Im so sick of the floor, theres just something more.
Hes going back there, back where,
everyones got a line, but if theres no love I dont want it this time.
I dont wanna fight it anymore, so here I am, and Im not yours.
I said I dont wanna do it for you this time.

Which to bury, us or the hatchet?

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

Come on man tell me what you were thinking,
doing everything with a selfish reason.
I didn’t meant to be the one to cut in,
but you gotta stop and think about what you’re doing.
You sang your song way out of tune,
so step off now and let it loose,
I’m not gonna do it your way!
I’m doing it for God, so I’m here today.

Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
I just want one more chance
To put my arms in fragile hands

I thought you said forever
(Over and over)
A sleepless night becomes bitter oblivion

These thoughts run through my head
(Over and over)
Complacent violence become my only friends

And all the words are on your tongue
They gave you everything when you were young
You threw it all away when you were done
You pray you found the chosen someone
It's not me
I don't wanna be
I'm not the cure, I'm not your savior
Now there's danger every second that you breathe

We’re dancing on the fence.
We’re losing innocence,
but we can’t expect to live like this forever.
We weren’t made to live like this, no never!

If I'm here all alone
If I'm left behind
If they spit in my face
If they hate my kind

I will rise above
I will live for love
I will answer to the call
For the bond between
For the depth unseen
For my God forsake it all

It falls, apart, from the very start, it falls apart, seems like everything i touch, falls
aparty, everything around me, falls apart, when i walk away from you.

Well, I tried....not quite that simple guys

I walk the line
Leave it all behind
I've been waiting forever
Lets go back in time
When I could read your mind
Still I've been waiting

It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

Its been so long
Since you've been home
I used to wait up forever
I used to say a prayer
Wishing you were there
And I'm still waiting

You told me once
You'd show up
But I fell for that
Before I fell to pieces
Then I woke up
To no one,
Just a picture of Jesus
And a house left in pieces


It took the seasons going by
To know its not my fault

I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted
I tried to be stronger, tried to be smarter
Tried to be everything but you

I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you
I wanted you
I need you
I want to believe you

So I was talking with some people and found out some interesting things. Its funny when you find out stuff about people you would have never expected it from. But then, that's what it's all about isn't it? Finding out who people really are and in the end, what they will do. I tried to be perfect, tried to be honest, tried to be everything that you ever wanted. But I've realized that sometimes it doesn't matter what I've tried because when it comes down to it, I will be those things because I have the strength and endurence and most of all the will. When I hear what others have done I imediantly judge them and most of the time its as a bad person or a bad choice, and it shows me that they arn't strong enough to do what they should have. It makes me feel as if deep down...they dont have what it takes and that they're not gonna make it, I wish they could, but they should have tried harder. When people tell me how good I am at guitar, I usually say "I know" and its not because I'm a super cock jerk, but because I know how hard I've worked my butt off to get here and I know that it's payed off and I thank God consantly for my gift, so maybe I'm not humble right up front, but really when someone tells me how great I am, I do know because its what I live and breathe and constantly working harder and harder at.

J j j Jaded,
And I'm the one that Jaded you.

Am I Qualified?

I was reading someone else's blog today and it was about what they wanted in a boyfriend. I find it pretty funny really when people have qualifications of what they want in a guy or girl. It's like having OCD just with a person. To me, I think it all comes down to what happens and who is the one that makes you smile and say, I want them. I mean, sure I would love a girl who could play guitar or loved the same music as me but really..its not something a girl has to have. I just love laughing at those people who do that because they are going to be so busy looking for the person that fits what they want perfectly that the best one will just pass on by without a second glace, which we all know is what it is all about, the girl that blows you away and you need a second look.

Some Good Riffs

Here's a little taste of a song that I've been working on. I have the guitar and bass parts worked out for the most part and it will be on my CD hopefully!

We stand and raise up, raise up your glory
We bow down to praise you, praise you for eternity
We clap our hands, to a single beat
We dance around, move our feet

Easy Come Easy Go

You want to take the easy way out with this sergery because your scared, and your scared because if you try and fail, there's only you to blame. Life is scary, get used to it. There are no magical fixes, its all up to you. So get up off your kester and get out of here and start doing the work. What if its too hard? Nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy.

My Keeper

In moment of truth we always reveal who we really are. Sometimes we're our own worst enemy, and sometimes we rise to the occasion, even though we all know tomorrow morning that the three of us will go back to being the most unapreciated people in the whole hospital.

I think everyday is made up of tiny little tests. Some are tests of character, some are tests of fortitude, others are tests of friendship. And if your lucky, when it really matters you'll pass with flying colors.

So often you feel like your alone on an island, whether its just that you cant bring yourself to make a really important decision, or if your waiting for an answer, of if you simply know a secret that you wish you didn't. For me, I was stuck on that island because someone else stuck me there. Its not always easy to do the right thing, like putting someone else's feelings first for a change, even if it goes against what you really want. Of course, theres always randifications. Even if you do the right thing, theres no guaranty that it will turn out the right way. Because even something as harmless as 20 to 30 drinks with your brother can end up biting you on your butt.

Good Riddance!

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

I heard this playing today at work and I pretty much just stopped dead in my tracks. I really had to think about it and how hearing the song was really what I needed because its how I've been feeling lately. I have finally decided about college and I dont think I am going to go, atleast not this coming year. It really was something unpredictable but I know in the end it will be right, and this summer to next summer I will have the time of my life because I will be using it to just work on whatever I want. My plan is to get a full time job this summer and to work had and get tons of cash. While I am not working I am going to use that time to work on music. I want to put out a CD by the end of summer. I know a place where I can record everything and I have some ideas of where to sell or promote it. I have some awesome people that I'm sure would love to help me when it comes to playing. But what it really comes down it is just being able to say yeah, I accomplished something. I may not have a degree or a deploma, but to me what I have is better. I have a disc with my heart and soul in it, and there are others listening to me pour it out. After this I'm going to try getting back with some friends I know and start playing around, churches and what not and get my name out there, maybe take the band if things work out. Baby steps though, I know things will happen one way or another. I am really excited to take a year off and just do what I want. To not have any deadlines or things I HAVE to do besides work. It will be good, Gooooood.

My Drive-By

Ego is good, its the reason that guy wants you to be his surgant, its the reason that shes boarder line attracted to you. In medicine, have of pulling it off is believing that your the biggest smartest bad-ass of a docter to ever walk these halls. As I ganster leaned down the hallways in the rad new wheels I found by the dumpster, I couldn't help but think how ego affects everything. Without a healthy dose of it you cant trust yourself to do what you really want. But with too much ego you could end up losing something you still wished you had. But with the right amount, nothing can get in your way.

Don't Let The Days Go By....

Must be your skin that I'm sinkin in
Must be for real cause now I can feel
and I didn't mind
it's not my kind
not my time to wonder why
everything's gone white
and everything's grey
now your here now you away
I don't want this
remember that
I'll never forget where your at
don't let the days go by
glycerine

I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
are you at one
or do you lie
we live in a wheel
where everyone steals
but when we rise it's like strawberry fields

If I treated you bad
you bruise my face
couldn't love you more
you got a beautiful taste
don't let the days go by
could have been easier on you
I coudn't change though I wanted to
could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me
glycerine (repeat)
don't let the days go by
glycerine

I needed you more
when we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
it might just be
clear simple and plain
that's just fine
that's just one of my names
don't let the days go by
could've been easier on you
glycerine

That One Feeling...

Its funny when you work so hard for something and then get it, but not exactly how you thought. I love the feeling right now because it feels as if me hard work finaly has paid off. I accualy got more than I wanted in a way. Tonite was our "audition" for playing at grad sunday and we rocked. We worked so hard and we got a great result. I was told that I am a very skilled guitar player and even have a good singing voice, which I wasn't expecting to hear. I've always hear that it wasn't that great but tonight it just was I guess. Working with mindy and always singing with her helped me alot because I started to pick up on her vocal changes. As for guitar, hehe, I just love hearing that I'm so good cuz well, its my pride and joy and its what I'm all about....even if I rush a little.

My Chopped Liver

Sometimes that's the way life works, the person that does the nice thing is the person who suffers most. Whether it's giving up Turk Nite for a friend, going out with an intern to make your wife happy, or agreeing to be the bad guy for your boss. When your the one that ends up paying the price, it can really make you wonder...was it worth it?

If I told him what I went through he would feel horrible, why would I do that if I love him so much?

ITS TOO HOT.

Rocking Out

Wow, practice was awesome last nite! I feel like we really worked as a team and got the songs down. The only thing was that it drained me so much. I already wasnt feeling great cuz whenever theres a hot day out of no where I get a huge headache. My throat was also really hurting and I dont really why that was and so singing just killed and everything felt inflamed. So when I got home I just crashed into bed and it was nice to lay down but I started having weird dreams and I couldnt sleep for more than an hour. so when I finaly got up it was just horrible. I still have a headache and I feel like I have no energy and my mouth is really really dry but when I go to drink water it hurts alot! Oh and I'm really sore cuz of all the jumping around at band practice.

And its really nice out which doesn't help.

My Porcilian Godess

Watching Kevin go I just wondered how gay I looked giving that two-handed hand shake. And also how weird it was that someone could just walk into your life, make such a big impact and then just vanish like that, never to be seen again. But also how in some small way, Kevin had helped every single person he had met here. If there's something that you know you can do like intibating a patient or poppin a squat on the roof, and your mind keeps throwing up roadblocks, just know you can drive right threw them. I think its human nature to search for answers. Sometimes the answer you get is the one you least expect. But more often than not, the answer we've been looking for is the one that has been inside us all along. I guess the important thing is to never stop searching.

I have found it.

Everything

It's hard to look at everything in perspective, knowing that it all is ok and works out and that we shouldn't worry too much. God provides well. Whats hard is to sit in a room with the person you would think would be the most understanding and faithful, and to hear him have no faith at all. Whats hard is to listen to a man speak about what is right, and to know that he has no clue what right is. Its hard listening to this man, to have confidence in him or anything, because in the end it wont matter. In the end, he will still be on his high horse and you will be in the exact position you are already in, if not worse. In the end you still will not have enough confidence to tell him exactly what you think and feel, and everything will just keep going forwards while you go backwards. I hate this knowledge. I dont want anything to do with it, I just want things to be simplier.

I guess thats why they say

Every rose has it's thorn.

And yes, I still have doubts about my decision, but I guess I'm just hoping that the doubts will fade away. Who am I kidding, aventualy we all have to face the music.

Those Nights

I remember when
We used to laugh
About nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd

Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In a dark room lit by the tv light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive

I remember when
We used to drive
Anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused that we didn't know
To laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd

My Work Day

We hated our sergent. Yeah, he was mean to us, over worked us. Still, maybe sometimes thats what being a good leader is. Uniting everybody, to give them someone to hate. In life it seems that we all have a roll to play, some of us are meant to be loved, and some of us unfortunatly are meant to be hated.

Today at work I was told by 3 of the 4 other people I was working with that they didn't really like me. They told me I was very cocky and went on constant power trips. The thing is, to me, the cocky is to make up for the harshness I do to them. I know I am really strict when it comes to work and that, well they probly dont like me no. But maybe that is the only way to be a good leader sometimes, I feel if I dont take charge that chelsea, the real boss, wont and everything will just get done whenever people choose. I feel too responsible while everyone else isn't and that I have to make sure my mignons are on track, if thats yelling at them not to be eating and go bus, then thats what it is. I try not to be a hypocrite at work and with my work ethic, that is something I really work on doing because it is not right for me to tell them something and yet do it myself. And if giving them a reason to not like me is the only way they can get through the night and finish somewhat on time, I am ok with that. I'm willing to let them hate me for the wellness of our business, after all it is for the residence, not us.

My Extra Mile

I knew if i didnt leave that bar and go back i would never be able to enjoy the simple things. Even a woman eating my former bangs. See thats the thing about being an Extra-Mile Guy, you never know who its gonna rub off on.

Song Of Hope

 I will sing a song of hope

Sing along

God of heaven come down

Heaven come down

Just to know that You are near is enough

God of heaven come down, heaven come down

Untitled

Walking down the lonely street,
I know only you can guide me,
Hold my hand, Wish if you can
or we can just wait and see

See where you want to go
See where your going to take me
Only you can show me
Only you can show me

Down the path that you laid out for me
I'm so very glad I've found my way
Obsticals there, Be no scare
Until the light of day

Here I am Lord walking for you

Almost feel like I’m doing it blind

Give all my trust, if I only must

Type of faith that’s one of a kind

Untitled

Writin and Composed By Indy Elwood and Mindy Olson ©

Prom

You know what I found out last nite at prom? Was that there are alot of dumb people who just seem to want to go out and get drunk or mess around...its just stupid. Like I was really surprised how many people I heard were doing stupid stuff like that and some of them I would have never expected it from. Am I like one of the only people that wants to just have a good innocent time chillin? Just a disapointment

Because your the one suppost to struggle, not me. I don't know what I would do if you suddenly became someone who let something own you. I think the second you stop fighting it, time really is on your side. And you can go on being who you are, or keep enjoying that little crush of yours...

My First Kill

You can accomplish anything with a friend by your side. Of course sometimes friends will surprise you. One of the good things around here is that you dont know how things are going to end. Ultimatly it will drive you crazy if you dont have a friend to help you through it.

My Moment of Untruth

Its hard when you lose for the first time. Its harder when its the 100th time. And yet sometimes losing is a good thing, like for instance when your losing your insecurities about the guy your marraring which makes it a whole lot easier to cut him some slack once in a while. I guess you can underestimate how the smallest gester can make everything better.

I think the problem with most people who want what they cant have is that when they accualy get the thing they covet for, they dont want it anymore.

What love is

God?

And somehow forget you were ever a friend of mine
These days I’m amazed by the changes in you
But this time you decide you don’t like the truth
Don’t throw in the towel and give up on me now, what can I do?

It’s ok cause today there’s a way out of this
Take my hand if you can

Than dancing for pennies in the street like a gypsy girl, baby
You’re trying to lie about why you’re down and out
Can’t you see that it’s me you’re pushing around
When will you be still and take your chances with God?

She’s music to my eyes and she lives in paradise, but something isn’t right
She thinks she’s going blind, but it’s just dark outside
Tripping along under pale street lights
I can’t believe she says that everything’s fine
She’s the luckiest girl alive, she’s the luckiest girl alive…
What a lucky world

What a lucky world indeed

The One Tonight

Sometimes its those things that make absolutly no sense to someone...that causes anothers to make perfect.

My Catalyst

Everyone has there own way of getting through the day. For some, its as simple as standing up for a friend, and getting away with it. For others, its talking things out with someone.

Everyones got their own burdens, and I'm not going to be one of those guys that dumps mine on everyone else. I think owning your burdens is half the battle. Still, its not that daunting if you look around and see what other people have to deal with.

My Friend The Doctor, My Dirty Secret

You can never underestimate the importance of listening. Listening can effect your carrer. Listen can even mend a friendship. ultamitly, it keeps you in the moment. So you don't miss the things that matter.

You want to know why i wanted you to be that guy? Because it would mean that you used to be a guy who had dreams and ambitions, and even though things didn't work out the way you hoped, it would still explain why you are the way you are, and make you human. Some people hide from who they really are, others adventualy accept who they are. But sometimes its the tough moments that help you realize who you've finaly become.

My Fifteen Seconds

How are you supost to move on from someone when your always around them? When opertunities come along, you just cant, you just can not let them slip through your fingers. You know? I think I do. All I know is that I missed an opertunity, I guess thats the thing about life, you dont really get many second chances.

T.C.W.

I dont think people are meant to be by themselves. Thats why if you accualy find someone you care about, its important to let go of the little things. Even if you cant let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone. No matter how many people are around.

WHY ARE WE WAITING?!?!





for someone else to tell us how it should be....

Sacrifices

they warn u that youd would have to make sacrifices. i guess that means different things for different people. like giving up something now, for something youve wanted all your life. but after a while it feels like your not giving up anything at all.

Artist: Oasis
song:wonderwall
Album: (What's the story) Morning Glory?
tab by:FRANCIS CABALLERO OF BSU
Capo 2. fret

Chords used:

EADGBe
Em7 (022033)
G (320033)
Dsus4 (xx0233)
A7sus4 (x02033)
Cadd9 (x32033)
Dsus4/F# (2x0233) [note:some people think this is a G/F# (200033)]

Here's the rythym of how the chord in the verses should be played:

Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
e--3--3--3--3-3-3-3-3--3--3-3--3-3-3--3--3-3-3--3--3-3-3-3-3-3-3----|
B--3--3--3--3-3-3-3-3--3--3-3--3-3-3--3--3-3-3--3--3-3-3-3-3-3-3----|
G--0--0--0--0-0-0-0-0--0--0-0--0-2-2--2--2-0-0--0--0-0-0-0-0-0-0----|
D--2--2--2--2-2-2-0-0--0--0-0--0-0-0--0--0-0-2--2--0-2-2-0-2-2-0----|
A--2--2--2--2-2-2-2-2--2--2-2----------------0--0----0-0-0-0-0------|
E--0--0--0--0-0-0-3-3--3--3-3---------------------------------------|


Verse 1
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[NOTE: use the above strumming rythym when playing the verse chords below]
[ANOTHER NOTE: play all "A7sus4"'s in the verses the way it is played in
the rythym section above.]

Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you
Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
By now you should've somehow realized what you gotta do
Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do
Cadd9 Dsus4 A7sus4
About you now

Verse 2
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Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
Backbeat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out
Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
I'm sure you've heard it all before but you never really had a doubt
Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do
Em7 G Dsus4 A7sus4
about you now


Pre-chorus
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[NOTE: the tab below is what is played by guitars 1 and 3 while guitar 2
plays the chords above the words. The tab below is used for both the first
and second lines of the pre-chorus]

h=hammer on next note without picking again with the right hand
p=pull off to make next note without having to pick the string w/ your
right hand again

Cadd9 Dsus4 Em7
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
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Cadd9 Dsus4 Em7
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
Cadd9 Dsus4
There are many things that I
G Dsus4/F# Em7 G A7sus4
would like to say to you but I don't know how
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Chorus
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Cadd9 Em7 G Em7 Cadd9 Em7 G
Because maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me
Em7 Cadd9 Em7 G Em7 Cadd9 Em7 G Em7
And after all You're my wonderwall

(hold Em7, then silence)

drums come in, then:

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G--0-0-0-0-0-0-0---| (and then right back into chord
D--0-2-2-0-2-2-0---| progression for the verses)
A--0-0-0-0-0-0-0---|
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Verse 3
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[same chords as Verse 2]
Today was gonna be the day but they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

Pre-chorus
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And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you,
but I don't know how

Chorus
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I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Outro
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[this riff repeated a number of times with chorus chords in background]

Cadd9 Em7 G Em7
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A---------------------------------|
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Very faint riff heard at end of song: (I think alot of people may never
have heard this faint little ditty!)

[NOTE: this little riff is played WITHOUT a capo]


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Wait

You’re rushing, doing everything anything on the verge.
Not even thinking about what if you’re doing is absurd.
I don’t mean to be the one to cut in,
but you might want to stop and
think about what you’re doing.
Here we go, everybody in the house one time,

everybody get up with their
rhyme and the times and the lines,
and everybody says it, everybody
goes and everybody plays it…
what, and everybody says you’re front,
and everybody says you go with
your flow, and everybody knows,
everybody sings, and everybody brings…
Have fun go ahead, do anything instead.
You can do what you want if it looks fun.
But God is in control of the
route and that is what it’s all about.
Movin' in a van, so what we are
a band, now you gotta get up,
get the lights shining and jumping on your feet,

we’ll hit you with a beat, let’s
move for He has given us everything.
There isn’t a time, a place you can be,
not a place in your face that you cannot see,
back up your face are you talking, yea,
I said it’s grace, He will be with me every place.
And why now, everybody says it, why now,
and everybody says you go with
your flow and everybody knows,
and everybody sings and everybody brings it.

You go and everybody says it,
you go and everybody throws it,
you go and everybody fakes it one
time, and everybody shows it,
one time and everybody throws it,
one time and everybody goes it,
one time and everybody blows it.

Here we go, come on.
Come on man tell me what you were thinking,
doing everything with a selfish reason.
I didn’t meant to be the one to cut in,
but you gotta stop and think about what you’re doing.
You sang your song way out of tune,
so step off now and let it loose,
I’m not gonna do it your way!
I’m doing it for God, so I’m here today.
Everybody goes and everybody knows,
everybody sings and everybody brings.
Bring it on, bring it on this time,
everybody sets it up with their rhyme,
But now, everybody says somehow,
and everybody says you go with your flow
and everybody knows and everybody sings,
and everybody brings it.

Ici

Dieu, Je me sens tres interestant. Le monde me menance et je n'ai personne faire confience. J'apprerende me lever dans les matins, l'espore en moi a disparu et je ne sais pas ce qui faire. Je me ballide entre la vie pour qu'est-ce que? Échever dans le fin? Se renseigner que je sois un mavais gen? Je veux élater, tuer, s'échaper. Mais, Je devine que je ne peux pas. Tout je peux faire est profiter de la vie et essayer gagner. Oui? Je pense. Néanmoins, Je serrai ici.

Just Plain Ordinary

"Yeah, well, at least I'm not ugly"
"Yes you are. And your boring. And your totaly ordinary, and you know it."

The girl they were talking about was a girl who wanted to be a model, someone who wanted to be extordinary. Its funny because he is so right, she is ugly, and boring and totaly ordinary. To me, its because she represents the world. She is just like everyone else and there is nothing special about her. While for the rest of us, like christians, there is so much. Our little relationship with Jesus makes us so...extordinary. So interesting and beautiful. And to tell you the truth...its hard for me to like non christians or christians who act like they arnt because they are so ugly and boring on the inside. They have almost no sense of morals or right vs wrong. They have no drive that makes them extordinary. I still love them as a person but to be able to understand them and agree with what they may be doing...its hard and I dont like to. Being in AP Euro really has taught me alot about my morals and my beliefs because of all the discusions we have in there and how they all turn out to be somehow connected to religion. And it is always me who is asked those questions it seems and it is always me who gives the answer that I believe is the cookie cutter answer but deep down I really believe it. I really do believe that morals are the things that you stick to no matter what, not the things that you throw out the window when u have a situation where it is tough. Morals are the thing that should make everything plain black and white, not black and white and red all over. It should not be the situation "if you were starving and poor, would you steal food?" and you go, well yeah, because im starving and cant buy food. Morals are the things you stick to when you are faced with a rough postition. It is not the thing you forget in order to benifit yourself. Have you ever noticed that? Usauly people stick to their morals until they are faced with something then they will just do whatever best benifits themself. It is not what is accualy right but it is what will get them further that they can defend for chosing. I just wish people could see...see that what they are doing is so wrong and vile and disgusting to look at. And well, I dont want to really be around it anymore..I want to run away and be with others who agree with me and live in my own world where everything is just great because everyone is doing what is right and trying to be the best they can be, not the best they can be while being lazy and looking normal. But the world will never change. It will always be full of people who just don't want to put the effort towards caring about what we do or what we say or what we even think. There will always be someone who wants to have fun and be on the wild side and wants to mess everything up for the rest of us. And we will always just deal with it. Like fighting a war that will never be won, being pushed underground almost and percecuted for trying to be what is accualy the moral and right thing. There is so much beauty in the world...but its just so hard to see with all the filth that we have covering it up.

"Do you think I'm ordinary?"
"You couldn't be ordinary if you tried."

Take The One Thing I Have Left

We were meant to live for so much more, have we lost ourselves?

Memento

"I have to believe that when my eyes are closed, the world's still there. Do I believe the world's still there? Is it still out there?... Yeah. We all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are. I'm no different. "

One of my most favorite quotes. And lately...I have been getting a lot out of it. Just the idea that even though it is not physicaly there, like someone telling you that they care, it is still there. All because they are not showing you doesnt mean that they dont care. Its hard for me at times. I worry that those little things mean that they dont care, that they hate me. But I need to keep telling myself this quote and remembering that its ok to doubt, its ok the look in that mirror and remember they care.

We all need mirrors. I'm no different

Lets Pack Up

I'm not falling for anymore of these tricks
I'm so tired of everything here
The sun is calling me to the west
Everyone's having fun out there
My bags are packed as im looking out the window
Everything is so outdated here
I wanna move west to where the sun is shining
I want my friends to all be there

Ooooh ooooh ooooh ooooh
ooooh ooooh ooooh ooooh

Chorus
Let's pack up and move to california
She's got lots of friends out there
We'll never get bored cuz we can go boardin'
Let's let the sunshine take us there

I am tired of taking it slow
So tired but I'm not sleepin
I'm wired, about to pick up my board
Cuz we're all headed out for the weekend

Let's pack up and move to california
Hop on board before we get older
Raise your hands and shout for california
Come on come on come on come on

chorus

Come on come on come on come on

Ooooh ooooh ooooh ooooh
Ooooh ooooh ooooh ooooh

Let's pack up and move to california
She's got lots of friends out there
We'll never get bored cuz we can go boardin'
Let's let the sunshine take us there

Let's pack up and move to california
She's got lots of friends out there
We'll never get bored cuz we can go boardin'
Let's let the sunshine take us there

Let's pack up and move to california
Hop on board before we get older
Raise your hands we're headed for the border
come on come on come on come on

"i just dont want to be a little fling, something just for fun. i dont want to loose her i dont want to be treated like that for payback for what ive done to so many people. thats what im scared of the most. For being used or just another guy like so many girls were to me"

Wants

Its funny when you want something so badly, more than you have ever wanted something. And you want it so badly because you know you can have it. You know you can have it but you dont know how to get it. Its not the thing that everyone wants that you want so desperatly, but the thing that everyone could have that you want. Its not the thing that makes your eyes jump, but the one that makes your soul dance. Its the one that makes you feel like the stupidest guy in the world but at the same time the luckiest. The one that makes you wonder, "why me?" Then you realize it is because you chose it. It is because you want it so deeply that you can have it and somehow will. Then that is when you know in the end, it doesn't matter how you get it, because you want it solely you have it. You have it in the palm of your hand and it is just waiting for you to grasp it. It is that grasp though, that is keeping you from having it, it is the thing that you fear most. It is the thing that makes you think that it is not yours when you know more than you've ever know anything that it always has been yours. And that grasp is the thing that often lets it fall through your fingers to where someone else realizes that it is theirs. That fall, is what makes it so hard to grasp it, that is what makes you fear the tightening of your fingers because what if, what if it happens again? What if when you go to grasp it, you can't? That the exact thing will happen and you can't stand to do it once again because you hate knowing you let the thing you wanted most fall, fall into someone else's hands to grasp, and you are left with nothing else but the things that everyone else wants, which you dispise the most.

Head Over Heels

Just, close my eyes and dream away

Everyday they’re coming truer than true.

I peek through my fingers to see if its real

I can only hope it’s you

Treading through my dreams, walking through my door

Just don’t know what to say anymore

Fantasy and reality merging at once

I can only hope its not just a hunch

Cuz I’m, Head over heals over you

Lost my mind and I’m seaching for answers

I’m, head over heels over you

You’re my lock and I’m your key

I’m laying down not sitting up

When I see your sparkling eyes sneaking right on in

Golden blonde hair wavying in my reflection

Your beauty must be a sin

I can only hope I can only dream

I can only wish I can only sing

I can only hope I can only dream

I can only wish I can only sing

Head Over Heels

Writin and Composed By Indy Elwood ©