So today was filled with a million different feelings. Feeling of hate, the feeling of love, the feeling of want, the feeling of flirtyness, the feeling of tiredness, the feeling of......anyways. I wasnt too happy today at all. It all started with my hair. Dont touch my hair people. I am so very anal about it. I wanted the sides and back cut cuz it was bugging me so i had my mom do it...then everyone here starts getting involved and was like cut there and here and NO, ITS MINE! Iono i just dont get why people do half the stuff they do. So that really didnt start my day off well.
Then I was told to go to firy to meet jesse which i knew what it ment since today was the day he was gonna hang with someone. And i really didnt want to see that someone. And i knew that that someone was gonna be there. So I went because I didnt want to waste the day sitting around the house doing nothing. I sorta regreat it but owell I did and its over with. I wasnt too happy the moment i left but i cant dwell on it cuz theres no use.
Then i got to hang with Mindy before the Quince which made me happy cuz i always enjoy hanging with mindy. Always makes me smile and accualy think straight. So then we rolled out to the Quince and had fun, or atleast i did. Dancing was great even though i still think i looked like a dork but owell, haha. And i got something i've wanted a long long time and i think that will help me get over you Miss Elaineous.
Then me and mindy had fun. Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envie, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust always hopes, always perserves. LOVE NEVER FAILS. So I know what i want now. And i know exactly where i find it. In the moment when i least expect it. In the moment where i am where God has called me to be. In the moment where i NEED her. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways adknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.
But one thing I need to realize and I am more and more is that I do love God. I truly want to please him in everything I do. When people ask me things I answer them the way that God tells us. I use the bible so much in my thinking. I want please him so much. I want to have him wrap his arms around me and tell me that I did a good job. But I feel that it is so impossible because I fail so much. My Giant has taken over me!! How did I let that happen?? HOW??? I wish i was a loser...but theres no way that I am close.
One thing that has popped out to me today was the name of my blog, the song from nevertheless, The Real. Its a great song and band(check em). We are the real, the truth is unchanging. Hmm. We are what God wanted us to be. God will never change. His promise is always there with Jesus.
Then I was told to go to firy to meet jesse which i knew what it ment since today was the day he was gonna hang with someone. And i really didnt want to see that someone. And i knew that that someone was gonna be there. So I went because I didnt want to waste the day sitting around the house doing nothing. I sorta regreat it but owell I did and its over with. I wasnt too happy the moment i left but i cant dwell on it cuz theres no use.
Then i got to hang with Mindy before the Quince which made me happy cuz i always enjoy hanging with mindy. Always makes me smile and accualy think straight. So then we rolled out to the Quince and had fun, or atleast i did. Dancing was great even though i still think i looked like a dork but owell, haha. And i got something i've wanted a long long time and i think that will help me get over you Miss Elaineous.
Then me and mindy had fun. Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envie, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust always hopes, always perserves. LOVE NEVER FAILS. So I know what i want now. And i know exactly where i find it. In the moment when i least expect it. In the moment where i am where God has called me to be. In the moment where i NEED her. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways adknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.
But one thing I need to realize and I am more and more is that I do love God. I truly want to please him in everything I do. When people ask me things I answer them the way that God tells us. I use the bible so much in my thinking. I want please him so much. I want to have him wrap his arms around me and tell me that I did a good job. But I feel that it is so impossible because I fail so much. My Giant has taken over me!! How did I let that happen?? HOW??? I wish i was a loser...but theres no way that I am close.
One thing that has popped out to me today was the name of my blog, the song from nevertheless, The Real. Its a great song and band(check em). We are the real, the truth is unchanging. Hmm. We are what God wanted us to be. God will never change. His promise is always there with Jesus.
This is who we're meant to be
We are the real, the truth is unchanging
This is the call to hearts that are fadin'
2 comments:
Yeah, the dancing was great. No, you didn't look like a dork, and your hair looked fine =)
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